__________by Lovelybrown
Being your woman means I have to walk in a smooth way
Elevating myself over the sea of femininity and being ever so polished
and smooth and lady like
Humble and passive
Being with you means I have to suppress that tomboy shit
Keep it in the closet with all my timberlands, khaki cargos, baseball
caps and
Versace Dreamer
Dreaming of making love to you with tongue, lips, fingers and strap
But only dreaming that which can not be
With you
If I’m gonna be your woman
You like me all wrapped up in lace and satin
And perfect skillfully applied mascara and fake eyelashes and manicured
nails
That hide the complete me
Versatile I use to be
But you can’t feel me when I embrace that other side
And with each one of your labels you bruise my pride
Nah, I’m not trying to be hard
I let down my guard, but
All you see is feminine versus masculinity
And I’m a bit to femme to be stud
And a bit to suspect to be femme
And a bit to aggressive to give into your obsessive man like whims
All the while questioning my loyalty to loving you
And for my attraction I have to defend
So I have to be smooth and fluid and rock those 3 inch stilettos
In all my pigeon toed glory tripping over your ideas
Wanting to keep it real
Yet feeling out of place
When you try to place me
In your box
You know where my thongs are aligned with your boxers
And wife beaters
Black lesbian dictates that keep straight boundaries about who
You can and can’t be
See I wanna be free
You can be my daddy
But just let me be me.
