by
Nevaknew
Rachel's point of view:
I just broke up with my girlfriend, we had only been together for a few months but for some
reason I just knew that she was gonna be the one for me. Boy was I wrong this woman played me
so many times it wasn't even funny and I knew she was playing me I guess I was just tired of
being alone. My friends tried to warn me but I didn't care.....C'mon ya'll know how it is when you
are all in and nobody's opinion matters but your own and of course anyone else who will listen to
you.....lol....even though deep down inside you know they are right.
Well anyway me and some of my close friends went out to dinner (this is something that we do at
least twice a month)....while we were at dinner my friend Tammy said "Rachel what happened
with you and Katrina" "who?"..."Katrina...what happened with you and Katrina"...."Who?" and
then we all laughed...."Dayum gurl you change women more than I change drawers...lol". "
Whateva gurl....you have to keep looking until you find what you want its not gonna come
looking for you...ya feel me"...... Lauren said "Well maybe if you stop looking so hard you will
find what you are looking for". I looked over at her and in my mind I was like where did that
come from......but I just shrugged my shoulders "I guess".
After dinner we went to the club to get our party on.......when we got there we went to the dance
floor and were cutting up as usual. After a few dances we broke up into pairs and I was dancing
with Tammy but when I turned my back to her to dance, and turned back around I wound up
dancing with Lauren. "Dayum I must be more twisted than I thought I could have sworn I was
dancing
with Tammy a minute ago....lol". Lauren laughed "no you started dancing with Tammy I just cut
in thats all". So I looked at her "well am I that good of a dancer that you just had to cut in and
dance with me". Lauren smiled "well actually I wanted to talk to you". "well what do you want
to talk to me about". "ummm.....well I was wondering if we could go out" "well were out
now"....she looked at me "you know what I mean go out as in me and you alone without the rest
of the gyrlz". "Oh that kinda out well sure I don't see why not"...."well you sounded kinda
hesitant its ok if you don't want to go because you feel uncomfortable" . "Nah i'm cool with it for
real". So when the night was over and we were leaving and saying our goodbyes Lauren pulled
me to the side "I will call you tomorrow"......Tammy looked at me like....gurl whattup wit
dat...and we went home.
When I got home the phone was ringing but I already knew who it was.....so I picked up the
phone "Hello Tammy"….. "you think you know me so well dont you".....lol. "well anyway you
know why I'm calling gurl what's up with you and Lauren"…."Gurl what are you talking about the
woman just said she was gonna call me that's all". Tammy is the gossiper of the group…I mean
she was
mad cool peeps but you just knew not to tell her any of your business cause if you did the whole
crew would know..ya feel me…"gurl I know you are not holding out on me"…."I'm tired goodnight
Tammy"…."G'night Rachel but you know i'mma find out if somethings goin on"....we hung up
and I went to bed.
The Following night around 8pm the phone rang and it was Lauren. At the beginning of the
conversation I was kinda nervous, I don't know why because we had talked on the phone on
several other occasions but this felt different. As the convo went on I felt a little more
comfortable and we made plans to go out to dinner and maybe catch a flick on Friday. We talked
almost on a daily basis and suprisingly I enjoyed it….(c'mon yall don't front you know how easy it
is to get tired of folks....lol). So when Friday came I was really looking forward to going out with
her. We went out to dinner and laughed and joked so much that time had gotten away from us
and it was too late to go to the movies so we went back to my house for drinks.
Then we just talked some more it started getting late and Lauren said she had things to do so I
walked her to the door, we stood there for a moment because it was an awkward situation.
Lauren moved in like she was going to kiss me but could see I was kinda nervous so she hugged
me and said goodnight. Over the next few weeks Lauren and I hung out a lot we even missed a
few of the hang out nights with the gyrlz but it didn't matter to me because I was enjoying myself
with her.
The following weekend we hooked up with the gyrlz for the usual dinner and we were going to
see a play. Tammy pulled me aside "Ok gurl what's up with you and Lauren?....stop frontin and
tell me" I didn't answer and Lauren was within listening distance so she stepped in "Tammy
we're just friends nothing more nothing less so you can go on and report back to the crew and let
them know that nothing is going on"…..and she grabbed my arm as we were walking away Lauren
turned to Tammy "but if there was something going on you would be the first to know " she
winked and we just fell out laughing.
Lauren's point of view:
When the night was over we went to Rachel's house, watched a movie and talked about Tammy's
nosy ass. It was getting late so I got up to leave and Rachel walked me to the door, but this time
before I walked out the door I turned and kissed Rachel softly on the lips said goodnight and left.
Rachel stood there for a minute because she was stunned, she wasn't sure if it was because of
what had just happened or because it felt kinda good.
The next day I received a phone call from Rachel and she was crying and asks her to come over.
When I arrived Rachel told her that Katrina (her ex) came over and was talking about old times
and how she wanted to get back together with her. Katrina said she heard that Rachel was seeing
someone new and that her new girl could never make her feel as good as she could. Rachel was
all upset because she thought she was over Katrina and now Katrina had her head all messed
up…..(Now can someone please tell me WHY it seems like that dayum ex always seems to make
their presence known when you are trying to hook up with someone new and they just step right
on in uninvited.. I just don't understand it) anyway back to the story. I sat back and listened while
Rachel talked about her ex. When Rachel was done she asked me my opinion about the whole
situation. "Is this the same woman that played you before?" "yes" "Well if this woman didn't
treat you right before what do you think brought on this miraculous change other than the fact
that she thinks you have someone new". "But I don't have someone new and I'm not looking for
someone new I don't know what would make her think." After about 1hr or 2 I asked Rachel if
she was ok because I had some errands to run. That was not 100% true because what Rachel said
about not having someone new really hurt but I didn't want to let it show. Rachel said that she
would be ok and I gave her a hug and left.
The next few weeks passed and I didn't call Rachel as much as usual.
When the gyrlz (meaning the crew) got together and went out to dinner and
the club, we both tried to act like things were normal but you could feel
the tension. Tammy walked up to Rachel "Dayum gurl what happened did you two
have a lovers quarrel its so cold in this motherfucker I need earmuffs..lol"
"look why don't your nosy azz mind your own dayum business, and no we did not
have a lovers quarrel because that is not my lover….now leave me the phuck
alone" Tammy looked at her surprised "dayum gurl a sista cant even take a
joke no more " and she walked away.
When the night was over and I was walking to my car, Rachel asked me to come over to her
house se we could talk. When we got to Rachel's place she apologized to me. I said, "Dont
apologize for how you feel because that's something you cannot change". "But I don't feel like
that..I mean I do.. I mean..I don't know what I mean." "Look Rachel, it's ok you don't have to
answer anything right now.."Lauren why are you still single? I mean you are so nice
and very attractive I'm surprised someone hasn't snatched you up." I
just smiled. "Lauren you know I wanted to call you but I thought you were upset and
didn't want to speak to me." I explained that I wasn't mad at her; I had
just wanted to give her some space.
Everything seemed like it was squashed so they went into the bedroom to watch
a movie like old times. Rachel was telling Lauren how her ex was trying to
get back with her but she could see that nothing had changed, so she told
Katrina (her ex) to just leave her alone. Lauren asked Rachel how she was so
sure that she wasn't still hung up on her ex and Rachel replied "I dunno" and
all Lauren could say was, "Oh."
Just then Rachel moved closer to Lauren and kissed her. This one wasn't a peck like the first one
it was a long deep passionate kiss. One kiss turned into a few and things were starting to heat
up. Then Lauren pushed her back and stopped her. Rachel was confused and asked what was
wrong..Lauren told her things were moving a little too fast and she wanted to slow them down.
She didn't want the night to end up being a mistake. She put her arms around Rachel and told
her to lean back and just relax they started talking and ended up falling asleep. When Rachel
woke up she was surprised to see that Lauren was not beside her and probably figured she was
just in the bathroom…..she looked on the pillow and saw a letter so she opened it up and this is
what it read
I was going to mail this to you during the time we weren't really
speaking, but after the talk we had last night I decided to leave it
here..the letter went on to explain how attracted Lauren was to her and she
had been every since they met but it seemed like everytime she was going to
say something Rachel got involved with someone else….she told her that she
knew Rachel had a lot of things going on and therefore didn't want to put any
pressure on her but just wanted her to know how she feels and let her make
the decision…….and she ended the letter with this
Will you let me touch you?
When I say touch you I don't mean in a physical sense
I want to touch your soul
And become part of your mental existence
Tell me love why are you running?
There's no need to be afraid
I'll hold your hand, I'll guide you through
You can lean on me every step of the way
Can I get to know you?
If only for a little while
Maybe make it last forever
Until we're standing still in time
There's so much I want to teach you
There's so much I want to learn
Like what's your favorite color
What in this lifetime do you yearn?
Is it all right?
If I turn your darkness into brighter days
I just wanna ease your fears
And maybe wipe your tears away
These are just some thoughts
I had running through my mind
When you're ready you know where to find me
I'll be there until that time
Rachel knew there was no need to look for Lauren she knew she was
gone. She
wondered why Lauren had not said anything sooner..Now see sometimes it's the
unexpected that opens our eyes to situations that under normal circumstances
would be overlooked whether it be for better or for worse sometimes its
better to expect the unexpected.don't you agree?
If you were Rachel what would you do?
THE END
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