__________by Lovelybrown
It's not very easy living all alone
My friends try and tell me find a girl of my own
But each time I try I just break down and cry
Cause I'd rather be home feeling blue
So I've saving all my love for you
--Whitney Houston
I am consumed by some demon
Cause shorty...she got me believing
Even after all these years of promises turned into lies
I dream about the trail of her hands going up thighs
Shit I guess I was in denial
But baby girls words. Her actions were my bible.
Guess I was blind
Wasted a lot of time
Missing my blessings
Cause over you I was stressing
Trying to believe
That your home was with me
Like it used to be
Remember when we planned
For me to work and you to get that engineering degree
Guess I was foolish, cause I thought it was me
See your love was special
Cause it made me wanna believe
And stop being that fake ass hard girl I portrayed myself to be
When we met
Can’t forget how I wanted to be your wife
How much I changed my life
For you/For us
The trust…..
But now I understand
I loved you so deeply that I forgot myself
To caught up in being spoiled and placed on that shelf or pedestal
But in reality the foundation was weak
Guess I didn’t want to see the deceiving
To busy caught up in the way you was eating
Me….she and you
Had that family arrangement set in stone
While I played the player and submerged myself in pimping and plotting
Feeling so alone
Still loving you
Lingering
Always in second place
I suppose you still ignore the pain you see on my face
CAUSE IT’S TO TRUE
She needed you…
Well I did too
But can’t complain
See I never got the ring or the child
But I carried the pain for awhile
And I still love the way you make me smile
But I can’t save that love for you anymore
It’s becoming to much a burden
To much of a chore.
You used to tell me we'd run away together
Love gives you the right to be free
You said be patient just wait a little longer
But that's just an old fantasy
No Longer featuring you and me
So I let that go
So my heart can be free
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