Ms. Kat Tamer

_____The strawberry colored satin sheets flowed gently off the bed like a stream of water finding it's way to a secluded and exotic waterfall. Candles of blues, reds, oranges and yellows burned silently as their soft glow created silhouettes against the wall. Their bodies were entwined so close that not even the cool air from the open window could penetrate their unyielding bond. Lovers for the last two years, Diamond and Natasha decided to finalize their unique love.
_____"I love you so much Diamond and I can't wait until tomorrow when you will become Mrs. Natasha Smith", she said while caressing her soft cheek and admiring her beauty. Her index finger slowly traced its way down her face and around her ears. It finally rested within the humid confines of her mouth. She pulled it out and inserted it into her own. She savored the flavor of her sweet juices.
_____" I love you too, and I can't wait to be Mrs. Smith", she said kissing her soul mate softly on the lips, "I've been dreaming of this day since we first met."
_____"I have too and I can't wait to be your hersband. I want to give you everything I have inside of me."
_____Natasha pulled her closer to her and began to stroke her in places that made her body shudder in expectancy. The scent of their sex alone was the ultimate aphrodisiac. It awakened their most intimate desires. As the tantalizingly delicious scent drifted throughout the room, their bodies connected even more. Natasha slowly kissed Diamond while simultaneously spreading her legs. Diamond opened her eyes and stared into Natasha's face. Natasha lowered her body until she reached the top of Diamond's thighs. She brushed the soft pubic hair that was there with her chin. Diamond was so wet that it was a damn shame. Finally Natasha began to devour her. She let her tongue flicker against Diamond's engorged clit.
_____Three orgasms and a Diet Coke later, their lovemaking session was over. With their bodies drenched in sweat, they held each other close while enjoying their final act of sin, before becoming hersband and wife. After regaining her strength, Natasha showered and headed back to her apartment to get ready for their big day on tomorrow.

_____Her wedding day had finally arrived. After months of planning, she'd made it. In less than two hours, she and Natasha would be standing before God and all of His witnesses, exchanging their vows to one another. Diamond sat anxiously at the mirrored desk as the makeup artist skillfully applied her makeup, and the hairdresser added his final touch on her magnificent, upswept hairdo.
_____"Rene, I'm so nervous that I'm about to shit on myself! I feel like my heart is about to jump out my throat!"
_____"You'll be okay Diamond! You just having wedding day jitters, so it's only natural that you feel like this way. I know it's a big step. I mean you can't go clubbing, you can't do whatever you what, fuck whoever you want or even spend your own damn money the way you want but, child, it's worth it. It'll be over before you know it. Then you and that caramel dream of yours will be on your honeymoon tearing those sheets up something terrible!", Rene said as she held Diamond's hand firmly, gently stroking it as she reassured her. The two of them had been friends since elementary school, and they thought of each other as sisters. That was the reason she'd asked Rene to be her Maid of Honor.
_____"You're right, girl, I guess I do need to relax. I ain't got nothing to worry about, right?"
_____"Right! When you walk out there, Natasha's sexy ass is going to be standing there, waiting for you to join her", she said as she kissed Diamond on the cheek.
_____"Now, let me go and get dressed because I have a bouquet to catch! Us 'SINGLE' women need studs in our lives and a little sex would help too!" Rene said, putting emphasis on the word 'single'. Just as she reached the door, Diamond spoke.
_____"Rene!" Diamond shouted.
_____"Wassup D?" Rene said turning to face her.
_____"No problem girl, now go out there and get your woman."
_____Diamond closed her eyes and began to say a little prayer. This was how she dealt with the stress in her life. After a long pause, she opened her eyes slowly and said "Amen." As she stood looking at herself in the marbled mirror, there was a knock at the door. Before she had time to answer, Rene had already stuck her head into the room.
_____"I just saw Natasha downstairs and she handed me this note to give to you," she said as she passed the piece of alabaster colored parchment paper to Diamond. A closer observation revealed that it was one of their wedding programs. "She wanted to come and talk to you in person, but I told her that it was bad luck for her to see you before the wedding. She asked me to give you this," she said as Diamond anxiously took the note from her hand. "She's so amazing, huh? I guess that's why I'm marrying her. I never know what to expect from her. She's so spontaneous!"
_____"Well, enough talking, open it and see what the fuck was so important that it couldn't wait until after the ceremony!", Rene said reaching towards the folded piece of paper as if she were going to open it herself.
_____ Diamond had a big smile plastered on her face from the anticipation. She was used to Naquan pulling stunts like that, so she wasn't fazed by it. As she read the note, her facial expressions changed radically.
_____"Oh my God! Damn that piece of shit!!" she screamed dropping the piece of paper to the floor.
_____"What's wrong?" Rene said as she kneeled down to retrieve the note. She blinked her eyes and looked at the paper again, as if she were seeing things.


Love Always, Natasha
_____"That Bitch! I don't believe this. How could she do this?" she said forgetting that Diamond was still standing next to her. "I'm so sorry D, I didn't mean to say those terrible things I should've been more considerate of your feelings," she said frowning as the taste of salt filled her mouth from the streams of tears that had began to flow uncontrollably.
_____Diamond, by this time, was hysterical. She bent over and held her stomach, gasping for air. Rene reached out and pulled her near, comforting her, trying to ease her pain. After a few moments, Diamond regained her breath, but the pain was still there. She reached for Rene and held her as the tears flooded her eyes, but she never said a word. The pain in her eyes spoke every word that her mouth couldn't.
_____"I know that it may not seem like it now, but this shit is going to get better. You gotta believe that, girl," Rene said as though she was trying to convince herself as well.
_____"How could she just walk out on me like that? That bitch said she loved me!" Diamond placed her hands over her heart as though the pain that she was experiencing was actual physical pain. "Please tell me this shit isn't true, Rene. I just paid $650,000 for a damn wedding dress so tell me it isn't true! Please tell me that, will you?"
_____Knowing that words couldn't ease her pain, Rene simply wrapped her arms around her and held her close, gently stroking her hair.
_____"This can't be happening! Please tell me that this is some kind of nightmare, and that I'm going to wake up any minute!" Diamond said sobbing uncontrollably.
_____"Everything's going to be okay. You just can't see it now. It's going to be all right. She never deserved you anyway! You're too good for her anyway," she said getting a half smile from Diamond.
_____After sitting quietly for nearly an hour, Diamond finally spoke. "I guess I'd better go out there and tell everyone that there isn't going to be a wedding. Damn, who's going to pay for all that shit out there? I'ma have to work overtime like a bitch". Just as she started to move, Rene stopped her. "No, you sit and rest. I'll go and let everyone know wassup."
_____ Diamond didn't argue with her. She didn't have the strength, or the courage, to go out there and face all of her family and friends. After Rene delivered the bad news to everyone, she came back to join Diamond once again. "For real Rene, I'd like to be alone right now."
_____" I understand, but Mike-Mike and them said that if they found Natasha's sorry ass that they was gonna fuck her up and you know those fools just got outta jail too but if you need me just holla at me girl. I'll be in the backyard next to swings, okay?" she said, not leaving until she'd gotten a response.
_____"Okay," Diamond said. Her voice was almost gone from all of the crying that she'd done.
_____Hours after the tears had begun to fall and curious guests had poked their noses through the door of the dressing room to offer their pity, she walked out into the empty sanctuary. As she walked slowly down the aisle, she could hear the soft music playing in her mind. Luther Vandross was belting out his soulful rendition of "Here and Now." It was the song that she and Natasha chose to have playing as she made her way down the isle. She carefully tried to pace her steps and keep in rhythm with the song's melody that she heard so vividly. The closer she got to the altar, the more her heart raced. The more pain she felt. She stopped abruptly about five paces short of the altar. She reached down onto the pew and grabbed one of the bridesmaid's bouquets. With her hands placed together in front of her, she extended her arms slightly. She stood in a trance, staring straight ahead.
_____"I now pronounce you hersband and wife. You may kiss your bride."
"Kiss your bride."
_____"Kiss your bride." Those words echoed as sirens ringing in Diamond's ears. She felt daggers being poked into her heart as she stood beneath the white arch that was standing in the center of the altar.
_____"Kiss your fucking bride, Natasha!" she shouted as she threw her bouquet against the candelabra that housed the unity candle that they were supposed light during their wedding ceremony; a candle that represented their coming together as one.
_____ As the tears mixed with the black eyeliner, they formed tiny streams that gently flowed down her face, tracing each crevice they found. The silky curls that she'd adorned only hours ago were now tear-soaked and trundling down the brow of her forehead, annoyingly sticking to her face. Tiny specks of the almond colored foundation that once made her face look so flawless were now entwined with the tiny pearls that had been delicately hand stitched onto her custom made Vera Wang wedding gown.
_____She sat down, sobbing uncontrollably beneath the flower-decorated arch at the end of the aisle.
_____"Why Natasha? Why the fuck did you do this to me? Why did you do this to us?" she shouted as if he were standing there before her.
_____"Oh God! How could this happen? How could you let Natasha walk out on me like that?" she said as she stood up and began knocking over the arch and candelabra. She clutched her fist tightly and swung with all of her might. "I hate you Natasha! You selfish motherfucker! Fuck me for not leaving you! I hate you!" she shouted as she continued to destroy the rest of the decorations. She ripped the bows that hung delicately on the edge of the wooden pews. Finally, after all of her energy was gone, she fell helplessly to the floor. There were no more tears to be shed. Her well had run dry. All she felt now was the spear piercing her heart that much deeper. Her soul had been viciously ripped from within.
_____At that moment, she felt as though there was nothing more to live for. Her soul mate for life, or so she thought, had abandoned her on their wedding day of all days.

_____Although five months had passed, Diamond still felt the pain and emptiness that Natasha had caused. She'd single-handedly ruined her life. Not only was she heartbroken but she was in debt. But she still loved Natasha. For what purpose, it wasn't clear.
_____Throughout the whole ordeal, Diamond had two people that she could really count on. Rene and Jada. Whenever she needed another person's perspective on something or simply for companionship's sake, she would call on Jada. Their "relationship" had been put on hold due to Natasha's jealousy, but now, since she was no longer in the picture, their friendship resumed. Jada and Diamond spent many nights together watching movies, going out to dinner, and making out.
_____Although they'd grown close to one another once again, their relationship was never consummated. That would involve too many emotions and Diamond wasn't ready for that just yet. They'd gone out to dinner and since it was getting late, they decided to call it a night. Jada kissed her on the cheek and went on her way. Diamond walked into her apartment, flipped the light switch on and immediately began to undress as she made her way to her bedroom. As she walked towards her bathroom she glanced over at the nightstand and noticed that the red light on the answering machine was blinking. She pressed the play button and listened as she searched the drawer for her nightclothes.


_____"Diamond, its me, Natasha. I hope that you can, someday find it in your heart to forgive me. I know I hurt you, and I'm sorry. That was never my intention. I was just scared. Marriage is a big step, and I wasn't sure that I was ready to make it. I realize that I should have said something sooner, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I realized that I made a mistake and I want to try and make it right with you."


_____"Hi Diamond, it's Jada. I'm really enjoying having dinner with you tonight. I hope that we can get together again real soon. Give me a call when you get a chance."
_____'That must have been the call she made when she went to the restroom during dinner. How romantic!'


_____"D, its Tasha again. I need to talk to you. Please call me. We really need to get this stuff out into the open. Call me, okay?"
_____'Fuck her and why does she keep calling me anyway?'


_____"Diamond, please, I'm begging you. Just give me ten minutes. I, I need to tell you how I feel. I need to get something off of my chest. I love you Diamond. It took me a long time to finally realize that I do want to marry you. I been miserable without you. Please call me so we can talk. That's all. Nothing more, nothing less."
_____Diamond finally called her. "I'll meet you, Natasha, on one condition."
"I don't care, you just name it!" she said.
_____"We meet at Leadenhall."
_____"The church we were supposed to get married at?"
_____"Yeah, that's the place. You still remember where it is right?"
_____"Yeah, I remember, but do we have to meet there?"
_____"Why not?"
_____"Of all places, you chose Leadenhall!"
_____"Look, if you want to talk, then meet me there at four-thirty. Make sure that you are there on time because if you aren't, I'm going to leave and I WON'T meet you again!" she said and hung up the phone before she had a chance to answer.
_____Natasha arrived at the church on time. As she walked into the dimly lit sanctuary, she saw Diamond sitting in the front on the first pew. With each step that she made, her heart pounded like a drum major at his best. Tiny beads of sweat formed on her brow almost instantly. When she finally reached the front pew, she was speechless.
_____As their eyes met, Natasha could see the pain in Diamond's eyes. Pain that she'd caused. There were so many words she'd memorized, but none of them came to her remembrance at the time of need. She opened her mouth but nothing came out. She kneeled down before her grabbing her hand gently as she finally gathered up enough courage to speak. A tear rolled slowly down her cheek. "I'm sorry for all the pain that I caused you. I know my words may not count for much right now, but I really am sorry for what I did."
_____"How the fuck could you do that to me? To us? Do you know how embarrassed I was? And where the hell is the $6,536 that your sorry ass owes me? I thought that you really cared about me!"
_____"I did care about you! I still do! I just fucked up, that's all. I don't know why I did what I did, but I hope that, someday, you'll forgive me"
"We made love the night before for, and you didn't show any sign that you were having second thoughts. How could you change like day and night just like that!" she said snapping her fingers.
_____"I can't explain what I was feeling. When I left my apartment heading for the church, I was fine, but when I walked out into the sanctuary and saw all of those people there, I panicked. I couldn't breathe! I felt like the walls were coming down around me. I wanted to talk to you so I came around to your dressing room. That's when I saw Rene. She wouldn't let me in to see you. She said that it was bad luck, so I gave her the note and asked her to give it to you. That was the hardest thing that I've ever done."
_____"Why couldn't you have just told me how you were feeling? Don't you think I would have taken it from you a lot easier that way, rather than you just walking out on me, leaving me without a clue? Didn't I at least deserve that much?"
_____"I know that now. I've realized a lot since you've been gone. There isn't a day that has gone by that I haven't thought about you or the mess that I've made out of things."
_____"You're right about that. You definitely made a mess of things!"
_____"I deserved that," she said holding her hands up in the "surrender" position. "I definitely deserved that!"
_____"I want to hate you Natasha, believe me I've tried, but I can't find it in my heart to do so."
_____"I still love you, Diamond, that has never changed."
_____"I love you too Tasha but there is so much that has happened, I'm just not sure about anything."
_____"We can make it work, I know we can."
_____"I don't know. There is just too much pain still there."
"We can get through this. We have to. Just give me one more chance and I promise to make things right," she said still kneeling before her.
_____"We can try, but that's all I can promise you at this point," she said allowing her to hug her.

_____Diamond planned an intimate dinner celebration for Natasha's twenty-third birthday. She'd made reservations at Inferno and invited all of her closest friends. Jada came as well. Natasha looked at Jada with bullets in her eyes aiming them right her way. Jada smiled and looked away. That pissed Natasha off even more, but they were celebrating her birthday and she didn't want to cause a scene. She just held her peace.
_____They all sat around the table and talked as they ate their dinners. Finally, after everyone finished their dessert, Diamond stood up to make a toast. Cling, Cling, Cling! The glass rang out as she hit it with her fork. "May I have your attention please! I'd like to make a toast to the birthday girl. Stand up Tasha! ,"she said grabbing her by the arm and pulling on it to help her up.
_____"I just like to say that this is a very special day for many reasons. For one, you have finally made it to the big two-three. That's an accomplishment in it self." Everyone laughed because they knew how much of a daredevil Natasha was. She'd had many close calls but somehow managed to come out of them without so much as a scratch. Diamond continued as Natasha stood up with a smile that went from one side of her face to the other.
_____"Two, this is a very special day for me as well," she said still standing next to Natasha. Just as she said that, Jada stood up.
_____"You see, today, Jada and I got married!" she said showing off her huge diamond ring. While everyone congratulated them, Natasha fell to her seat in disbelief. Her lips stood open and her hand rested just above her heart.
_____ "When did all this go on? How did you manage to sneak off and get married?"
_____"Well, lover boy, I didn't sneak anywhere. Let's remember that I'm a grown woman and I can come and go as I please. But to answer your question we went to the courthouse this morning", said Diamond, delighted at the response she was getting from Natasha. She was so comical. And were those tears that she saw in her eyes?
_____"Look Diamond I'm sorry for what happened between us but we can work through this," Natasha said while resting her hand on Diamond's arm.
_____"Hmm.. let me think about it. Stay with a selfish bitch or stay married to a beautiful, energetic and loving woman? I think I'll stay with my baby."
_____Payback's a bitch, ain't it??


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