by
Lady Scorpian

you'll never know how much i miss
the tenderness of your kiss
the moonlight serenades
stretching like cats after
mind boggling love has been made
you hearing me say hello
making me hang up so you can hear it again
noooooo
you'll never know how much I miss
our 4 hour conversations on that and this
hearing you say you love me
hoping you will always be
with me
handing my heart to you
throwing caution to the wind
knowing like this I'll never love again
noooo
you'll never know what it felt like
to fall in love with my ideal
can you imagine that?
my perfect womyn was real!!!
oh hell no
you'll never know how hard it was
to walk away
my mind so cautious
while my heart screams stay
how painful it all was
the hurt the lies the being misled
doing one thing
when the opposite was said
on both our parts we fucked up
as far as getting back together
no such luck
life goes on and we move on
but know this
you will always be my ideal
I say this because if only to me
I must keep it real
I will love you for ever and a day
but I can't take the chance again
of feeling that hurt
like talons ripping off flesh through my shirt
my eyes not wanting to see the light of day
forgetting what I did today
and not remembering the date of yesterday
of the voices in my head
because of loving you so much
and remembering what she said
at that very moment wanting to be dead
going through the motions everyday
coming home to hide in darkness
from the light of day
you'll never know what it took
how my esteem got shook
walking away when all I wanted to do
was to held by the warmth of you
but so very afraid
scared of ever going through what I did that day
yea i'm cautious now
and you'll never know
what being cautious has cost me
and you'll never know how
just know I loved you with my everything
and I probably always will
but life is for the living
and goes on for as long as I live
you'll never know what it took for me
to walk away from you
or what it was I had to give.......
you'll just never know!

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