by Qwriter

You bite the hard candy of my nipple
your fingers inside me, the river in my mouth
makes me blush
I kiss the blues from your face

I want to hurt those who have hurt you
you wound me in the name of
your pain
I am sad 'cause I know you
don't know the difference

I sit, lie upon your bed long,
long time, I sit watching you
watch me and I, I
want you, want you, want you
as much as I want myself

I know I am in trouble 'cause
I let you strap up &
fuck me even though I
don't really like that shit, but it,
it only hurts a little & I

I do it 'cause
I want you to feel good as you make me feel
I sit, lie upon my bed long, long time,
watching me, watch you, I wait
wait for your smile to break
surface, carve a path through your pain

I want to breath again,
there is a brick in my chest
I smoke too much, can't sleep,
my back hurts
I want to get high & I know I am in
trouble, all up in it scared
ghost of childhood's past wraps
tendrils 'round the moon light

we are both fucked up

You want me to save you

I sit, lie, upon the wall long,
long time, watching us, watch me,
forgive me

I can only save myself

you chew my nipple,
suck my tongue
I will get over this 'cause
it only hurts a little as we, we
we ride cycles of sleep
drift in and out of each other
& you,

you let me make you
come, show me how to
do it even though it, it
makes you vulnerable &

I know I love you spread out
like that all long
and big and dangerous
you sing of butter milk skies

I, I listen to history hum
through you, & I grieve,
grieve a little,

I sit upon the wall long
long time, watching me,
watch us
my throat dry, still I,
I thirst for the thrill

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