__________by Nikki Morgan
Once was all it took for my heart to be scarred by the pain that I could not speak of, one day, one moment, one second in time, and I was sure that I would not make the effort again.
I sat on the shore of the sea and prayed as the tears ran down my face.I said why dear lord did you have me to stay when I knew I should have just left that place. Yet I knew it wasn't god's will for me to suffer it was my own that kept me by her side.
Through pain. cheating, lust, and late night pages I stayed and watched as she continued to lie. I had phone calls of stories or rides of glory in her Benz, and still stayed because I just knew that no one else would want to take me in.
Yet you know I am to blame and no one else, I brought all this blame on myself, love has no limit and no boundaries to cross. Either you live with the lies or you live with the loss. I lost a piece of myself, but gained the world...when I let go of that other.
Now I have a real girl. One who made me her wife, and took me for real, loved me deeply and made me whole again. Sometimes the lessons you lean make things well worth the wait.
Sometime the one your with, make the one you've been looking for forever..a little late.
