KUMA: My Ex by C. A. Lindsey

by
C.A Lindsey

"Angie now girl you got to act like you're surprised, tonight yeah we're gonna tear the roof of tha motha, cause it's your 35th Birthday, and girl you know what that means." Laughing hysterically, my best friend Sonya hung up the phone. Wow I couldn't believe she'd gone through so much trouble renting out the Princess Palace, the hottest Club in town, just for me. This past year I'd been dealing with some heavy emotions my lover had left me, after two years of what I thought was a good relationship.

Jessi and I had met at the Princess Palace; the moment I saw her my heart fluttered and skipped a beat and I knew definitely I had to make my presence known to her. She had such a inviting smile and the twinkle that reflected in her big brown eyes, captured my attention as if I'd gone into some sort of trance I'd never felt such immediate attraction to anyone, as I felt for her that night. Damn here I go again back down memory lane, I thought to myself. "Hey Sonya, I'll catch up to Ya later around 10 tonight, is that cool?"

Sonya then stated, "See ya, and don't forget look surprised." After placing the phone down onto its cradle I decided to take a long hot as I could stand bubble bath, and light some scented candles along with some smooth soft oldies playing in the background. All I could think of was her Jessi and the times we shared together. I remembered our first date and how she made me feel like I was the only person in the crowded restaurant; oh how attentive she was, she looked at me as if I was a precious jewel and the world was only there for the two of us. Jessie told me of how she'd came to New York after living in Chicago for most of her life and how she'd started her own Perfume business; after many years of studying and researching the art of developing scents I was impressed with her enthusiasm and obvious love for all that she'd achieved in her business also her great success. I almost couldn't believe she'd asked me out she could've had her pick of any womyn at the Club that night.

Mmmh and our first time of intimacy was like heaven. I'd never been made love to; the way she showed me that first time in the Mountains it must have been three weeks after we'd met, when Jessi asked me if I'd accompany her on a "chill out weekend" never telling me where our weekend would be spent; just that it would be special and it was. When we arrived and entered the Cabin, the fireplace had been burning rendering the amber glow of the logs, along with the cracking sounds it made which created a warm and cozy atmosphere. There at the table was a bottle of Champaign chilling in ice; in its metal holder, fresh fruits and cheeses arrayed delicately in precise positions, inviting to be tasted. The only taste we had in mind was of tasting each other and basking in the new found feeling of love yes love. I'd fallen head over heels in love with Jessi, and wasn't ashamed or afraid of showing her just how I felt. After three weeks of constant attention and conversations, I'd felt she trusted me and felt the same. Jessie had stopped my advances of intimacy previously; stating we needed more time to know each other, and I understood her position; she had lots of womyn throwing themselves at her trying to grab on to her coat tail.

As we laid in front of the fireplace in our sacred Cabin, together kissing for what appeared eternity, holding on to each other with our bodies in rhythmic motions grinding excelling the intensity we both felt, Jessi then began unzipping my pants finding her way to my area of moist pleasure; slowly massaging fingering me in a way that rendered me helpless to her every tactile stroke I was about to cum, I was completely wet and desired her that much more, and she knew it was then time to extend my pleasure. Removing my half off pants, Jessie spread my legs placing my feet in a up position, with both her gentle hands stroking my thighs in such a loving way she placed her head between my legs and let her tongue explore all of me, making my body feel as though it was the first time ever being made love to, taking me to such heights of excitement I panted heavily and screamed her name as I exploded releasing all of my sensual juices into her mouth. I'll never forget the first time we made love.

I remember the time we got fogged in at the airport, after vacationing in London for two weeks and how frustrated Jessie had become, knowing the closing on the new Condo she'd purchased for us; was the next day I remember the party at our house Jessie had thrown for me, after I quit my job as a Teacher to stay home and devote time to writing my first novel, and times we spent alone just the two of us cuddling and kissing. I remembered all of this but above all I remember and miss her love. Shit all those memories of good times, all gone down the drain just as this now half warm bath water will soon go I thought; allowing the tears from my eyes to flow freely now, hoping for an ending to my sadness with each teardrop that fell.

"Surprise Happy Birthday Angie! The music was jumpin' at the Club that night, and lots of friends all around, dancing and drinking in my honor even my publicist was there along with photographer's taking candid shots of me, while I tried to maintain that I'm surprised as hell look on my face. Life for me was good, I had to admit my first novel was a tremendous success and now, I was working on my fourth book and had royalties coming out my ass I now had so much money, and recognition. I didn't know what to do with all of this acquired fame and neither did Jessi, what was a loving relationship turned into rivalry, the more public attention I received, the more Jessi stayed later at her Perfume factory and her business trips became more and more frequent without me. I tried everything to rekindle the closeness we had lost and eventually I found out Jessi's "ex" was back in the picture, Jessi had spoke of Pam and how they had lived together for five years also how supportive Pam was while she attended College back in Chicago and the driving force behind her, during the start of her company. I just didn't know feelings still existed. However, reality had its rude awakening for me.

"Fuck it it's my Birthday and I'd might as well get fired up", I said to Sonya standing by my side. As I strolled out on the dance floor, with the music bangin' grabbing the hand of the nearest person and shook my bootie likes never before. I had to admit I was now having a damn good time, and then it happened I spotted Jessi, in deep conversation, in the corner with Pam. Shit now why in the hell did Sonya have to invite Jessi ? Loosing beat with the music. I hadn't seen Jessi in over a year now and here she was, with her girlfriend at my party some fuckin' nerve she has bringing herself and that bitch to my party, I thought. I'll just ignore them and have a good time, like I'd planned on doing. Jessi made her way to the dance floor and cut in just in time for when a slow jam came on holding me tightly and rubbing her hands in circular motions over the small of my back. Whispering softly in my ear "Happy Birthday Angie, I couldn't miss this special day I've missed you, but I realize something I never fully got over Pam and you you deserve so much more, take care Babe and Happy Birthday," With those words Jessi left me standing at the dance floor and rejoined her place with Pam, both leaving the Club together holding hands. I knew then I couldn't keep reliving the past, my life had to go on; without regrets and Jessi will always remain forever my "Ex."

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