by
Gyrlcandy
I first met Lila at my sister April's house. I had stopped over there one night on my way from work to drop off some CD's she had left over my place a couple of days ago. I just walked on in like I usually do, I heard voices when I walked in, I expected to see Kelly, April's best friend and the one person who is always over here. I walked in the living room and stopped dead when I saw the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. She was sitting down on the couch so I didn't know how tall she was, not that it mattered, because when I saw her all I could do was stand there like a big idiot.
She had the face of an angel. You ever watch Comic View on BET and see all the fine girls in the audience and be like damn these women are fine, well she looked better than all of them. Her hair was short, cut very stylishly. She had such a pretty smile, it wasn't a sexy smile that provoked all kinds of dirty thoughts, but a sweet and warm smile that was beautiful to me. And her eyes... she had the nerve to have eyes like Lauryn Hill, absolutely beautiful dark shining eyes. Eyes that you could get lost in. She was lovely.
I knew I was staring when I tore my eyes away from her and saw my sister smirking.
"It's not polite to stare" April said and I made a mental note to choke my sister when the chance came, because she had a knack for completely embarrassing me. But I always try to be quick on my feet and alert
"Your right, it's not right to stare, but I cant help but stare when I see such a beautiful woman" I said, very smoothly I might add. And I was rewarded by a shy smile that tore at my heart. I had never had a reaction like this to a woman. Yeah, I lusted after fine women and got turned on by them, but never anything like this.
"Well are you going to introduce us, or am I going to have to guess who she is?" I said half sarcastic half jokingly to my sister who was watching very carefully
"My Bad, Shavonne, this is Lila and Lila this is my sister Shavonne"
I reached out my hand to shake hers and I noticed how small her hand was in mine but she had a strong grip.
"It's nice to finally meet you, April has told me a lot about you"
"She's been talking about me huh?" I said quirking a comedic eyebrow at my sister and then looking back at Lila
"Well I hope she talked about my wit and sparkling personality" I said joking
"Well actually she told me how successful you are with the ladies and how you have a legendary little black book that a lot of people would like to get their hands on, including her."
"She told you about the black book huh, she has been trying to get her hands on it for years but she'll never get it, she wouldn't know what to do with it"
"Yeah whatever" April said "So to what do I owe the honor of this visit"
"Oh, I just wanted to drop off the CD's you left at my place last week."
"That's right, I forgot I left them there" April said turning to Lila "So what was the good news you just had to tell me that couldn't wait until tomorrow?"
"Well you know me and Darren have been seeing each other for about a year now, well I just wanted to come over and tell you that I'm pregnant!"
I just stood there numb, Darren...Pregnant...Damn! How could the woman of my dreams be straight and pregnant? She looked so happy, she stood up and held her stomach and she looked absolutely radiant.
"How far along are you? April asked
"About five weeks"
"Five weeks! And you're just now telling me?" April asked
"Well we wanted to make sure, we didn't want to get our hopes up and then be disappointed."
Well I'll be damned I thought to myself. She looks so happy there rubbing her stomach and just being excited that she is going to be a mother. I had to be happy for her.
"Congratulations, " I said meaning it, I really wished the best for her. We talked a while about when the baby was due and if she wanted a boy or a girl and if she picked out any names. When she left I congratulated her again and told her that if she needed anything at all she could always call me. I gave her my number and address and a soft kiss on the cheek. The next couple of weeks were pretty un eventful, I ran into Lila a couple of times once in the grocery store and once in the book store where she was buying a book on parenting. She was so excited about the whole situation. The next week is when all the drama started.
April called me and told me her job was transferring her temporarily to Kentucky and she asked me to water her plants and to watch over Lila for her while she as gone. I agreed to both. I called Lila asking her if she needed anything, she was just beginning to show and I wanted to make sure she was ok. I had been wondering where the father was. I had only heard her mention his name one time and that was the first night I met her at April's house. After that she never mentioned him again. I asked her a couple of times about him and she just looked sad and avoided the question. When she told me she had a doctors appointment and didn't mention that he was going with her I asked her if he was going to be taking her, when she told me no, she was going to be taking the bus, I immediately told her I would be picking her up that morning to take her and I wasn't gonna take no for an answer.
As for Darren I met him exactly three times and each time I asked myself what the hell Lila was doing with him. Sure he was cute enough, he was a very good-looking brother, but it was obvious he was less than excited about the baby. He looked plain uninterested. He never went shopping with her for the baby, he never wanted to talk about it, he never went to any of the appointments and he just seemed like he didn't care on way or the other. His bad attitude didn't go unnoticed by me or Lila and it caused them a lot of stress in their relationship. I knew he didn't want the baby but I at least thought he would be a man about it and support her through it and be there for her.
But I was wrong, that night Lila called me at 3am crying telling me Darren had left her. I was shocked, how could he leave the mother of his baby. She was crying telling me how they had another argument about the baby and how he was upset because she didn't have the abortion like she wanted and how she was ruined for sex, and how he didn't want to look at her anymore because she was fat and ugly. I told her I was on my way over and not to move.
When I got there, she was still crying, it wasn't easy to calm her down and when I finally did she fell asleep exhausted in my arms. I knew Darren was a asshole for the way he was treating her, but I never expected that coward to abandon her. He left her with little money and a tiny apartment in a neighborhood Lila didn't want to raise her child. I moticed how worried she looked, even in her sleep and I thought hard about what I could do to help her.
The next morning when Lila woke up she was greeted by the smell of cooking bacon, pancakes toast and sausage. For a second she forgot about last nights events and thought that maybe it was actually Darren making breakfast for her, but he never made breakfast for her, or lunch or dinner. Then everything came crashing back from last night and she closed her eyes and wondered what was she going to do. Damn Breakfast smelled good
"Good morning sleepy head"
"Good morning, u didn't have to make breakfast"
"Well I thought you might be hungry, I thought pregnant women are always hungry"
"Were not always hungry, were just hungry 99% of the time"
"Well I have a big breakfast waiting for you"
After they ate showered and cleaned up the breakfast dishes they sat down in the living room. Darren had taken all his things and some of her things; he basically left her the apartment that she couldn't afford. She didn't know what she was going to do. They talked about her options, she could move back to North Carolina with her parents but she didn't want to do that, they liked Darren and would just try to convince her that the break up was her fault and try to convince her to try and get him back. She knew living with them would cause more stress. She could kill that asshole. She went over every option over and over in her mind and it looked like she was going to have to move back home. The money she had wouldn't last long and it wasn't enough to take car of her and a child.
She took a deep sigh and bowed her head
"I'll guess I'll have to move back home" Lila said sadly
Shavonne looked at her and felt her heart ache, Lila looked so sad and defeated. She obviously didn't want to move back home with her parents, if only there was something she could do for her. The suddenly it hit her.
"I have an idea, and before you say anything hear me out ok?"
"Ok" Lila said wondering what was going on
"Well it's obvious that you don't want to move back to North Carolina, and I would be sad to see you go. So why don't you just move in with me?"
She held her hand up when Lila opened her mouth to protest.
"It makes prefect sense, I have a house big enough for you me and the baby, I have more than enough room, you wouldn't have to move back to North Carolina, get another doctor, if you moved in I would take care of you."
"Shavonne, your offer is sweet and I really appreciate it, but I couldn't impose on you like that, you are a good friend but I couldn't just change your life like that, a child is a big responsibility and it would be a burden on you and I don't want to do that to you"
"But I don't mind at all, I live in my big old house by myself, I make more than enough money and it would be nice to have someone else besides me in the house"
"I don't know..."
"Just think about it please, just promise me you'll think about it"
"Ok I'll think about it"
The day was a confusing one for Lila, she was shocked at Shavonne's proposal. She knew Shavonne was kind but she didn't expect this. The way she explained it, it did make a lot of sense for her to move in, but she didn't want to be a burden. But it was a solution to her problem.
She knew Shavonne liked her. It was obvious by the way she looked at her and how she was so protective of her. She liked Shavonne too, but she didn't want to complicate her life anymore. She had been attracted to her since the first night they met, she saw the look on Shavonne's face when she told her and April she was pregnant. Her relationship with Darren was already in trouble but she hoped that the news of the baby would bring them closer, but all it did was make him jealous of the baby and it made him resent their unborn child.
Truth be told she was glad to be rid of Darren, he was an asshole anyway, but he did provide for her. He never allowed her to work, he wanted her to be dependent on him, and now he left her broke and alone. She had been involved with women before. She had a girlfriend before she met Darren. She really preferred women but she wanted a family, she always wanted to be a mother and if that meant putting up with the father she was prepared to do it. But now that Darren left her she needed to do something. She knew life with Shavonne would be a good one. Shavonne was sweet, attentive and already treated her better than Darren ever had. Her proposal wasn't sounding so crazy anymore, it actually seemed like a good idea. She wanted to raise her child in a loving environment and she knew that's what would happen if she moved in with Shavonne. Her mind was made up. She called Shavonne into the living room where she was.
"I thought about what you said earlier" It was so cute how Shavonne looked so nervous
"And?"
"Well If the offer still stands I would like to take you up on it"
"Of course it still stands, I'm glad you decided to move in"
"But on one condition"
"What's that?"
"I want to get a job and pay you rent and as soon as I save up enough money I am going to get my own place"
"Ok, ok, whatever you want"
"Ok, then it looks like you've got you a new roommate"
It took them a whole day to move her stuff into Shavonne's house, when they finally got her things moved they sat in Shavonnes living room surrounded by boxes.
"It's gonna take us forever to get this place done." Lila said
"Nah, just tell me where you want me to put your stuff and it'll be done in no time"
"Ok, lets get started" Lila said bending over to pick up a box and Shavonne came over and took it out of her hand
'Woman what are you doing?" Shavonne said
"I'm picking up the box"
"No your not, you tell me where you want things to go and I move the stuff, I don't want you straining yourself"
"I won't strain myself, I'm not an invalid"
"I know, but I don't want you hurting yourself" Lila opened her mouth to argue but she could see that Shavonne wasn't budging and she decided to just go with her.
It took the rest of the day, but finally the house was done. Lila had her own room, which was where the baby was going to be too. Shavonne went to go take a shower because she was sweaty after all that moving. After her shower she was greeted by the smell of dinner on the stove.
"Mmm that smells good"
"Did you think you were the only one that could cook?" Lila said smiling while she checked on the bread.
Shavonne looked at the scene in front of her and smiled, the woman she wanted to be with, in her kitchen cooking for her. It was a scene she wanted to walk into forever. She got the plates and set the table. Dinner was delicious and she told her over and over again.
"Thank you, Darren never appreciate me cooking for him, it was like it was expected"
"Why did you stay with him for so long, if you don't mind me asking"
"No I don't mind, well I was trying to convince myself I was in love with him, when I found out I was pregnant I was shocked, I wanted to break up with him, but when I found out I was going to have his baby, I wanted to try and stick it out, for the baby, I think that every child deserves two loving parents, but it didn't work out that way"
After dinner they relaxed on the couch and watched TV. They were flipping channels when they passed wrestling.
"Go back!" Lila said excitedly
"You watch this crap?"
"Hell yeah I watch this, I love the Rock"
Shavonne looked at Lila in amusement, she didn't take her for a girl that liked wrestling. She looked more like the Martha Stuart type. But she found out how wrong she was when she saw how in to it Lila was, periodically screaming "Get 'em., take his head off!"
Now I feel I have to mention that she wouldn't stay still the whole time wresting was on. And when it was over she was practically bouncing off the walls. It was funny. We stayed up talking a little while longer then we went to bed.
The next morning I got up and got ready for work, I peeked in her room and saw that she was fast asleep. She looked so peaceful. Like a angel. I tried to walk away but I couldn't help myself. I wanted to just walk out the door, but my feet had a mind of their own and they walked over to her bed, and my lips had a mind of their own too because I found myself kissing her softly on the cheek. Her skin was so soft, before I knew what I was doing I was heading for her lips. I knew I was wrong, I knew it but I swear I just couldn't help myself. Her lips were soft and smooth. After I pulled my head away I immediately felt guilty. I shouldn't be messing with her when she was sleep, I was no better than that asshole ex boyfriend of hers.
I left to go to work. Damn, I shouldn't have kissed her, not without her permission. On my way back from work, I stopped and got her some flowers. When I walked into the house she was listening to my Dru Hill CD and dancing. She didn't hear me come in the door and I stood there watching her dance and sing. She was singing Real Freak from the Enter the Dru CD and I swear it was all I could do not to laugh. When the song went off, I applauded; she jumped about three feet in the air
"Oh!, Shavonne I didn't know you were home"
"Well I didn't want to interrupt the show" She looked so embarrassed
"Well I Like Dru Hill"
"I can tell, these are for you" I said handing the bouquet to her. And I was pleased to see her eyes light up and the look of surprise on her face
"You got me flowers?"
"Well yeah, I didn't know which kind you liked so I just got an assortment"
"Thank you, I've only been given flowers twice before, when I graduated high school and college, never just because"
"Well I hope you like them"
"I do, thank you, but I'll tell you what I like even more"
"What's that" I said walking to the kitchen getting apple juice out of the refrigerator
"Getting sweet kisses in the morning"
Oh shit, she was up! I almost dropped the apple juice I was holding. She saw the look on my face and started laughing at me.
"I'm so sorry, I didn't....I don't...."
"Shavonne, it's ok, I didn't mind, I really didn't"
"You were up?"
"Well I heard you in your room getting ready and I was in and out of sleep, I heard my door open, I wanted to see what was going to happen so I kept my eyes closed and pretended to be sleep and I felt you kiss my cheek and then I felt the kiss on my lips, you have very soft lips you know"
I really wished the floor would open up and swallow me, damn; I've never been so embarrassed in my life. And she was enjoying every minute of it.
"I'm so sorry, I felt really bad about it"
"Why?"
"Well I had no right to..."
"Shavonne" Lila said slowly walking to me, with this look in her eye, that confused me, it looked like...desire
"I didn't mind at all that you kissed me, in fact I'm glad you kissed me, the only thing I'm not happy about is that you waited until I was sleep to do it"
My head was spinning, was she saying what I thought she was saying? She couldn't be
"I've been waiting for you to make a move on me for a month now, I know you've wanted me since we met."
Holy shit, what was she doing? Was I that obvious?
"But you're...you have a..."
"You think I'm straight, that's what it is right?" She asked and I nodded
"Well I've only been with one other woman before and I loved it, but my parents pressured me to find a man, they knew that I wanted to have a family someday and they hated that I was with a woman. They pressured and pushed me to find a man, they wanted me to be "normal", I'm not saying it was all their fault, but they knew I didn't love Darren and they convinced me to stay with him."
"I..."
"Look Shavonne I know you were embarrassed about kissing me this morning but you shouldn't be, I wanted you to kiss me" She looked at my surprised face and gave me this devilish smile, she knew what she was doing, damn her
"Didn't you like kissing me?" She said in a pouting sexy voice stepping closer to me. I could barely breathe, she was so close and I could smell her perfume, it smelled like fresh flowers. I wanted to just pull her to me and kiss her, but I wasn't that bold.
"Ye...yes, I liked kissing you"
"So why don't you try it when I'm awake" Damn what the hell was I supposed to say to that? I felt like a school girl talking to her crush, I was choking
"Well I uh..." And before I could say anything else she reached up and kissed me, square on the lips. My eyes widened in surprise but I got over it real fast and kissed her back. I wanted to wrap my arms around her but I was still scared, I didn't want to move too fast for her, I was thinking if I should do it or not when she stepped even closer and wrapped her arms around me. Well that I was easy I thought as I wrapped my arms around her and gathered her close to my body. She felt so good in my arms and she was such a good kisser. Her tongue felt so good moving over mine and I got unbelievably excited when she moaned and kissed me harder and deeper. When we broke the kiss we were both standing there with out chests heaving and just staring at each other.
"See how much better it is when I'm awake?" She said in a teasing voice.
I nodded not trusting my voice.
Things were going pretty good from there, she was Seven months pregnant and she was huge, but she still looked good. I tried to make her as comfortable as possible but sometimes she was impossible. I told her constantly how beautiful she was but she wasn't hearing me, she said she looked like an "elephant" Oh she didn't look all that bad, but try telling her that. We were having a peaceful night at home, We ate dinner and sat down to watch TV, she watched a lot of TV, I wasn't a big TV watcher but if that's what she wanted to do that's what we were gonna do. She took the remote and we started watching Bay Watch. Now I'm not really into watching a bunch of white people run around in skimpy bathing suits, but it was what she wanted to watch. During the show all I could think was they need some sistahs on this show. I watched the show, not really paying attention, when I noticed the sad look on Lila's face.
"What's wrong?" I asked
"Nothing" She said, and I knew she was lying
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah, I'm sure"
So I decided to drop it
"Do you mind if I turn the channel?" She asked me
"No, not at all" So she turned to BET and the Destiny's Child video bills, bills, bills was on
"Damn, this video is old, but I like it tho, this used to be my favorite video"
"Why?" She asked me, and I should have known from the tone of her voice that it was a loaded question but I was so busy looking at the girls in the video that I just mindlessly answered
"Well, it's a nice song, and the girls are fine" She looked at me and I knew I said some thing I shouldn't have
"Oh u think their fine huh"
"They aight" I said trying to dig myself out of the hole I was suddenly in
"Don't lie, you think they are pretty"
"Well uh..." Oh Boy
"You think they have nice bodies don't you"
"Well..."
"You wish I looked like that don't you"
"No baby...."
"You don't have to lie, I know I look like a whale"
"No baby you look beautiful" But it didn't work, there was nothing I could say to her to make her believe I thought she was beautiful. Dayum women get so touchy when they're pregnant. She was in the bedroom lying down on the bed her back facing me.
"Are you ok?" I asked
"I'm fine"
"Honey, listen to me, those women are pretty, yeah they are nice to look at, but I would rather look at your beautiful face than those girls anytime"
"You don't mean that"
"Yes I do"
"No you don't, I'm fat, look at me, I'm ugly"
"Baby, you are not fat or ugly at all you have a life growing inside of you, that's the most beautiful thing on the world"
"You mean that?" She asked me tentatively
Instead of answering her I gently reached over and slowly took off the dress she was wearing. At first she resisted, but she let me do it. She sat on the bed in her bra and underwear and looked at me. I stood her up and took her over to the full-length mirror on the back of the door.
"Look at yourself" I told her and she looked in the mirror and looked away
"Don't look away, I want you to see how truly beautiful you are" She looked at me for a second and sighed and turned back to the mirror.
"Do you see how beautiful you are?"
"Yes...I do...thank you" She said with tears in her eyes. I looked at her and smiled.
'Your more beautiful than any of those girls running around looking like they need a sandwich" I said and was pleased to see her smile. I gently put my hand on her stomach and felt the baby kick. Which by the way we went for the ultrasound and found out it was a girl
"She kicked!" I said excitedly
"Yeah she does that, I think she might be a natural soccer player" She looked at my excited face and asked me
"You really don't think I'm ugly like this?" I looked at her, deep into her beautiful black eyes and kneeled down on the floor and gently kissed her stomach.
"What are you doing?" She asked me looking down at me on my knees kissing her stomach
"How could something as beautiful as this...?"I said in between kisses on her stomach "Be ugly?"
"Your crazy" She said laughing at me
"But I think I like the look of you down there" She said sexily, and grabbed ht back of my head and playfully put it right between her legs. I felt myself get wet. And resisted the urge to lick her.
"Damn, I'm a lucky woman" I said standing up and kissing her on the lips
"And why is that?" She asked
"Because I am with the sexiest woman in the world"
"The sexiest woman in the world huh?" She said
"Yeah, the very sexiest"
"I know I'm pregnant, but you are making me horny as hell"
"You too?" I said
"Yeah me too, you wanna do it?" She asked giving me a sexy look
"There is nothing I want to do more than you, but I don't want to do anything, I don't want to shake the baby up or anything"
"It's not like your gonna be sticking anything up there"
" I know, but I don't want to mess anything up in there, I want her to come out as perfect as her mother"
"Hmm you get a kiss for that" She said and gave me a long kiss, you know, the tongue wrestling who can push it farther kind. Damn I love kissing her
It was nearing the due date and I was anxious for this baby to be born. I had come to love Lila very much, but I swear sometimes she tried my patience. She was very moody and I understood I really did. Her body was going through all different kinds of changes, her breasts were getting bigger and all kinds of things were goin on. But it was like sometimes nothing could please her. I would bring her things; try to make her as comfortable as possible. But she would still yell and whine. I remember the first time she yelled at me, I was shocked but she quickly apologized but I was like damn, I hope this baby comes soon.
It was nearing the date and the closer the day came the more nervous I got. I had the bag packed, we went over the breathing they taught us in Lamaze class, I was ready. But some how when the time came I fell apart. I was on my computer doing some work when I heard her call something from the kitchen about water fell or something.
"Ok honey, I'll be there to clean it up in a sec" I called out then she walked over to me and said,
"No, my water broke" I'll never forget the wave of panic that washed over me, I jumped up from the computer
"Your...it's time...now?" I said looking around looking for what I'll never know
"Hey, Shavonne calm down, it's ok, I didn't start having contractions yet, no need to hurry"
"No need too...are you...so you're ok?"
"Yeah, I'm fine now lets clean up and then get to the hospital" She said calmly, and I really had to hand it to her she was so calm, so in control. She really calmed me down, because for a second I lost it. But seeing how calm she was made me feel better so that's why I'll never stop teasing her about the time her first contraction hit.
We where in the kitchen cleaning up and I heard her sharply breath in and clutch her stomach. I dropped the towel and asked her what's wrong
"Contractions...they started" She said through labored breaths and that he he he he breathing pregnant women do. Now I tried to be calm, I really did I went to go get the bag and when I walked back into the living room she was looking like she was in horrible pain.
"Move your ass" She said and I moved it into high gear and went to get the car, I screeched into the front of the house and jumped out and helped her in the car.
"Just breathe honey, breathe"
"Don't fucking tell me to breathe, I know to breathe!" Oh boy
"I tore down the street weaving through traffic, I got on the car phone and called the doctor, she was going to meet us at the hospital. I was already speeding but when I heard her scream when a contraction hit I prayed we would get there before the baby came. She was screaming and cursing and I was relieved to see the hospital. I pulled in and helped her out of the car and walked in the hospital, I opened my mouth to ask for the doctor but a contraction hit and a scream I never heard before came from her.
"Holy Shit" I said looking at her in amazement
"Don't just stare at me!" She said, "Get the doctor!"
The hospital staff was so good, they got her a wheel chair and took her to the delivery room, she was screaming and using some language I don't think I should repeat. I knew she was in some serious pain, damn I never knew a woman could scream so loud.
"Just breathe honey" I said taking her hand and making those funny breathing noises they taught us in Lamaze class.
"Don't you tell me to breathe, your not the one getting ripped apart here" She said to me
"It looks like another contraction is on its way" The doctor said So I mentally prepared myself for this.
"Are you sure you want to hold her hand?" The doctor asked me
"Of course I want to hold her hand" I said indignantly to the doctor, why would she suggest I wouldn't want to hold my baby's hand. Well when the next contraction hit I found out.
It was a big one and damn it if Lila didn't almost crush my hand.
"AHHHHH" Lila screamed when the contraction hit
"AHHHHH" I screamed as my left hand was crushed, I tried to take it away, but I she held on tight and wasn't letting go. I writhed in pain and I held my hand as it throbbed when she finally let it go. I looked at the doctor and she looked at me with an I told you so look.
"Nurse, get her some ice" The doctor ordered and I was grateful cause I damn sure needed some. About 3 hours passed and the baby still hadn't come. They asked Lila if she wanted drugs for the pain and she declined, she was scared it would hurt the baby. I was wiping her sweaty forehead and trying to reassure her
"You're doing so well" I said to her
"It hurts" She moaned
"I know baby, but it'll be over soon" I said
"I just want it to be over, I knew it was gonna hurt but I didn't think it was gonna hurt this damn much."
"Well you're doing so good baby" I said kissing her on the forehead.
"I don't know if I ever thanked you for all you've done for me"
"Honey, you don't have to..."
"No, I want to say this now, you didn't have to do what you did for me... you took me in and took care of me, you've done everything for me"
"Well I..."
"Why?"
"Why what?" I asked confused
"Why did you do it?"
"Well I uh..."
"And be honest" She said looking at me dead in my eyes, I wanted to tell her it was because I love her, but I still didn't have the nerve to tell her, although I suspected she already knew.
"Well I uh..."
"Tell me" She said
"I..."
"Tell me please" She said almost pleadingly "I need to hear it from you"
"I..." Well hell, it was now or never "I love you" I said and watched her face for a reaction, and was so relieved when she touched my face and said
"I love you too" My eyes got wide and my mouth dropped, now normally I am so much smoother than this, but damn that woman did something to me. She laughed at my reaction and reached up and kissed me. Damn I loved her. It was the sweetest kiss I ever experienced and I knew that I was gonna be getting a lot more of them.
I kissed her hand and silently prayed that the pain would stop for her. She suddenly screamed and jumped, scaring the shit out of me, the doctor rushed over and looked and said
"Ok people it's show time" I went to hold her hand but thought better of it. I couldn't believe what I was seeing.
"The head! I see the head!" I said excitedly, I was trippin for real, I couldn't believe it a baby was about to be born in front of me.
"Ok Lila, I need one more good push from you" The doctor said
"Ooh it hurts so much" Lila screamed
"Just one more push baby" I said and she pushed and pushed and I was sweatin and grabbin my stomach like it was me giving birth. Lila heaved and gave one more push and the baby came. She came into the world kicking and screaming, I mean screaming. Boy she had some lungs on her.
I was doing so good, I really was, it was a bloody mess but I held my own, but when the baby came out and all that other stuff came rushing out, I almost passed out.
"We've got a fainter" The doctor said damn, why she had to call me out like that?
"No No, I'm ok, I'm ok" I said still feelin kinda shaky
"Congratulations Lila, you have a beautiful baby girl" The doctor said handing Lila her daughter.
"Oh my god" I said to myself she did it. I saw the tears in her eyes and I felt the tears sting mine. I saw the look of wonder on her face when the doctor placed her daughter in her arms
"She's beautiful" I said to her, kissing her on her forehead
"So momma, what are you gonna name her?"
"Rachel"
"Rachel, I like Rachel, that's a good name" I said
"And I think I'm gonna give her a middle name too"
"Really what's her middle name gonna be?" I said surprised, she never mentioned a middle name
"What do you think it should be?" Lila asked
"Hmmm, um ....I don't know"
"How about Shavonne?" She asked and smiled at my shocked expression
"Shavonne?" I echoed dumbly
"Yeah, Shavonne after you"
I opened my mouth to speak, but nothing came out, I was actually speechless, she was giving her my middle name, I felt fresh tears sting my eyes. I was honored.
"Thank you," I said kissing her deeply
"No, thank you"
I stayed with her for the rest of the night, I stared in awe when she began to breast feed her. When she left the hospital, I had the baby's room all set up. Lila still moved kinda slow but she was feeling pretty good. I thought I was ready to have a baby in the house but I quickly learned how wrong I was. I mean I had to learn how to fix bottles, how to hold her correctly, how to change diapers, but the biggest thing I had to get used to was not getting any sleep. Because if I tell you Rachel would wait until we fell asleep, and around 2:45am she would start screaming. I mean just crying and crying. I jumped up and rushed over to her the first night, scared that something was wrong, she was sick or something, but Lila came in the room after me and told me she was just hungry.
"Hungry" I said confused "She ate already, and its almost 3am, how can she be hungry"
"I don't think she cares if it's 3am" Lila said as Rachel hungrily sucked at her breast
"I guess not" I said, and yawned
"You can go back to bed, I've got this"
"That's ok, I'll wait up with you"
"Don't front, you just want to see my breast" She said playfully
"Well yeah, there's that too" I said sitting down watching her
"Your so beautiful" I said softly, Lila looked up at me and smiled
"I can't believe you still think that" She said " I've gained all this weight"
"So what, you were beautiful before the baby and if anything I think you're even more beautiful now"
"Come here" She said softly, and I walked over to where she was sitting and got down on my knees next to her
"I love you" She whispered and I felt my heart stop. That was the second time she told me that and it had an even more powerful effect on me than the first time.
"I love you too" I said, kissing her softly on the lips
I then looked at Rachel nursing and said
"I never thought I'd be jealous of a baby"
Lila laughed softly and said
"Don't worry, you'll get your chance soon enough" And the way she said it in that sexy voice made my heart race.
Every since she came home from the hospital, I had been walking around the house in a constant state of horniness. Her body was now more voluptuous and her breasts bigger. She looked like she stepped right of my fantasies. I told her all the time how much I desired her, but for some reason she had low self-esteem. That asshole Darren always compared her to the women he saw on TV and in magazines and he always told her she wasn't pretty enough. He always tried to get her to change something about herself, her hairstyle, her clothes, tried to make her loose weight. And eventually she started to believe him, believing that she wasn't good enough. So when I tell her how beautiful she is she doesn't believe me. I could kick his ass.
We haven't had sex, I've wanted to since I first met her. When I first met her I wanted to tap that ass, and when she moved in with me I wanted her even more. I mean damn she was fine as hell, sexy as hell and when she would bend over to pick something up, lawd have mercy. I couldn't keep my eyes or my hands to myself. When we would be in bed making out you know, kissing, petting, hands wandering, something would always break up the mood. The phone would ring, someone would knock on the door, the baby would start crying, or sometimes she would be tired from her day, and I would give her a massage and hold her while she slept. So for one reason or another we never had sex.
I didn't want to push her but damn I was anxious. The night it finally happened, I wasn't really expecting it. At 2:38am Rachel started crying and Lila got up and went to her. I waited for a while before going in there. When I went in the room Lila was just finishing feeding her and was putting her in her crib. I walked up behind her and put my hands around her waist. I kissed her on the neck and was pleased when she leaned back into me. Now by this time I was wet and I figured she was too. My hands were squeezing her waist when she placed her hands on mine and slowly led them downward. I was excited and decided to let her lead the way. I put my hand inside her panties and was surprised at how wet she was. I massaged her clit and she let out a moan. My left hand was on her left breast squeezing it and she couldn't keep still as I was touching her. She stepped away from me and turned around to face me. I put my right hand up to my face and inhaled her sent. Damn she smelled good, I bet she tastes even better. I then put my two fingers that were just inside her, in my mouth and sucked the juices off. I heard her gasp and I saw her watching me intently. When I put my fingers in my mouth I saw the look on her face and I knew what we were about to do.
She grabbed my hand and pulled me into the bedroom. She backed me against the wall and started kissing me roughly. Her body was pressed against mine and I was losing my mind, she felt so good. I started leading her toward the bed, taking her shirt off and started kissing her breasts. I guess they were sensitive because she started moaning like I was licking her clit. But I wasn't complaining. I like hearing her moan. I laid her on the bed and stretched out on top of her, she hooked her leg over mine and started grinding on me. Hard. I sat up and took off her panties. Damn, baby was ready, because as soon as I took them off her legs practically flew open and I could see the wetness.
I licked my lips, preparing to eat me some good pussy, but first I had to tease her. It had been a while for us both and we were both more than ready, but I wanted to tease her, ya know, have a little foreplay to make it better for her, but she wasn't having it. I started kissing the inside of her thigh and was taking my time, when she grabbed the back of my head and said
"Don't tease me, please just eat me"
"You want me to eat you?" I asked innocently
"Yes, please" She moaned, she was really begging me and I was more than willing to oblige. But damn I loved hearing her beg.
"Aww com you can beg better than that" I said getting oh so cocky then she grabbed the back of my head and looked me in my eyes
"If you don't eat my pussy right now, this is the last time you will ever touch me"
"Well Damn, since you put it like that" I said and dove in. Damn it was better than I thought it would be. She was so wet and hot and it was like running my tongue across velvet. Damn she tasted good I enjoyed hearing the moans coming from Lila it made me want to ask whose pussy is it, but I figured I'd wait to ask that.
Lila was in ecstasy, when Shavonne worked her tongue over her inner lips she fought back the urge to scream. Shavonne was tearing her pussy up and she didn't know how to act. It had NEVER been this good with anybody else. Not even her ex girl. Shavonne was licking her like she was an ice cream cone on a hot day. She tried to hold back the moans, but she couldn't, it just felt so good. Sure she had gotten her pussy eaten before but it felt like the first time. Lila was losing her mind, she couldn't help but let out the long sexy moans Shavonne loved hearing. Shavonne then went to work on her clit; she worked on the neglected clit that had been ignored by past lovers. When she started working it, she chuckled when Lila's legs opened wider and she started grinding her pussy in Shavonne's face harder.
Damn, baby is really lovin this I thought to myself. Lila was practically trying to shove my face inside her. I loved working her clit, it stuck up like a diamond, eager for attention and I gave it all the attention it needed. Now I know I am a good lover but even I couldn't have predicted what was about to happen. I was licking her clit, just working it and then I hit her spot.
I swear I thought she was going to fall off the bed. She jumped like I electrocuted her and she screamed loud as hell. I stopped not knowing what happened when she grabbed me by the back of my neck (not too gently) and threw my face back in there. I was like oh shit, I hit her spot. If I tell you she was like a wild woman, screaming, bucking, jumping grabbing, scratching... she was crazy, and I loved every second of it. If I loved the moaning she started out with, I was in heaven over the screaming, she was screaming
"SHAVONNE, AHH YEAH EAT ME, EAT ME!"
HOT DAMN! I loved this woman.
I went to work on her and I swear she's never been the same again. I ate her pussy like it was going out of style. And when she was about to cum....oh lord, I didn't think she was gonna make it. I mean the noises she was making, it sounded like she was about to have a heart attack. Her body clenched up her head was thrown back, her eyes were closed and her mouth was open.
"I think...I think I'm about to..." She was gasping and trying to talk at the same time.
"I'm gonna...I'm about to..." Poor thang could barely speak , but when her legs squeezed my head so tight I thought my head was going to explode, I knew what was about to happen. She sank her nails into the back of my neck (I still have the marks) and she came like I've never seen anyone cum. She arched her body against me and held me tight and screamed and humped her way to the best orgasm she ever had.
"OH GOD!" She screamed and then her body went limp.
"I've never...it never..." She said between heaving breaths
"Shhh" I said "Catch your breath first"
She lied there for a few minutes and I just held her, she looked so cute lying there looking at me with wide eyes. She seemed to be looking at me differently, I couldn't quite put my finger on it, but it was almost as if she wasn't looking at me as dependable Shavonne, the woman that's always there for her, but she was now looking at me as Shavonne, the woman that can take her to heaven and back. (I'm assuming).
"Where did you learn how to..."
"How to what" I asked amused at her reluctance to say what she wanted
"How to...."
"Eat pussy like that?" I offered
"Yeah, eat pussy like that, you must have been with a lot of women" Oh no, she wasn't gonna get me with that one
"No, I haven't, I just know what I like, so I go with what I know"
I held her the rest of the night, and she fell asleep in my arms, it was kind of uncomfortable after a while, but I didn't even mind. I got up early that morning, went to check on Rachel and made breakfast for her. When she came into the kitchen with Rachel in her arms I went over to her and gave her a kiss
"Good morning" I said
"Morning" She said over a yawn, Lila was definitely not a morning person
"How did you sleep last night'
" I slept like a baby"
"Good, I'm glad"
Rachel, who opened her mouth and let out a yell, demanding she be fed, interrupted our conversation. We ate breakfast, talking and I noticed that look again, and she definitely was looking at me differently.
"Ok what's that look for?" I said
"What look" She said innocently
"Don't play innocent with me, why are you looking at me like I'm some kind of freak"
"I'm not looking at you like you're a freak, I'm just still recovering from last night"
"So that's why you're looking at me funny"
"I'm not looking at you funny, I'm looking at you different because after last night I'll never look at you the same again"
"Why" I asked really confused
"Because I had no idea you could do that to me"
"Do what to you"
"Make me cum like that"
Oh I see" I said with a huge grin on my face
"I can see your head getting bigger as we speak" Lila said teasing
"My head isn't getting bigger, but what can I say, I am the Number 1 lover like no other" I said in my best impression from The Last Dragon
I watched her feed Rachel and again wished I was the one at her breast.
"Uh uh, I see you"
"Se me what" I said all innocence "I'm just sitting here"
"I see you looking like sex is on your mind" She said putting Rachel in her crib because she fell asleep. I kissed her on the back of her neck and squeezed both her breasts and said
"You got me, I can't hide anything from you, and sex is on my mind"
"Good, that's the way I want it, because sex is on my mind too"
And I have to just say that my woman is the sexiest, loveliest, (and freakiest) woman I have ever met. I thank God every night, when she's lying in my arms that she is with me. She is my other half. I love her and Rachel more than I have ever loved anyone and I don't know what I would do without them in my life. As the years went on, and Rachel got older my love for her just grew. Rachel was now three and walking and talking up a storm. Rachel was the most precious and beautiful little girl in the world and I loved her to no end.
I was there to witness her first steps, hear her say her first words, and I guess I'm just a big softie cause every time she did something for the first time, it always brought tears to my eyes. I couldn't help it. I was helping raise a child and that was something I never thought I would do. Lila was still as beautiful as the day I met her. I couldn't get enough of her. I could say my life was perfect. Just perfect.. I would chase Rachel all over the house and it is the hardest thing in the world to feed her. Her food ends up all over her and her clothes. She is a handful and she has me wrapped around her tiny finger. At the end of a long day of chasing, feeding, and paying with Rachel, I am beat when it's her bedtime. Lila put her to bed while I get in the shower.
Lila and I hadn't made love in a week. We both have been busy and when we go to bed we both are too tired for anything. I really miss her, I miss touching her and kissing on her and I miss hearing her moan and screaming my name. I made up my mind to seduce her tonight. I needed to taste her. I turned off the water and got out the shower, I was determined to make love to my woman tonight. I dried off and got ready to open the door when I heard a song I hadn't heard in a while. I can usually tell Lila's moods by the music she listens to. When she's upset she'll listen to some jazz or blues, when she's in a good mood its Dru Hill or Whitney Houston or Lauren Hill. But the song I heard when I got out the shower made my heart skip a beat. I walked into the bedroom and saw my lady lying on the bed in a transparent negligee and I melted. I smiled when I listened to the song she had on. Sex is on my mind, from the Set It Off soundtrack was playing in my bedroom.
"What are you thinking" She asked me as I stood there looking at her
"I'm thinking that I love you, and I can't wait to taste you"
Lila gave one of her sexy laughs that never failed to make my heart race and gave me that devilish smile that made me wet.
"I have missed you so much over the week, I know we haven't made love in a week but baby I'm ready to make up for lost time" Lila said
"So am I" I said coming over to the bed and kissed her on her sweet lips.
"I love your lips" I said and she smiled
"But I love your other lips even more" I said sliding my hand down her body
"Well what are you waiting for" she asked me, opening her legs, sending me a silent invitation, to which I happily accepted...
In the background the radio played sex is on my mind....
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