__________by Lovelybrown
In another time or place
U and I would be cuddling in front of a fire
Meditating and debating on roles and positions and sexism
In the life
and the absence of strong black women as couples
And hoes versus the wife
and you would look at me with this pure feeling that
Verified that you were mine wholly
In another time and place
Emotions could be discussed and lust could be unleashed and
You could get to know the freak in me
And I wouldn’t have to worry about you leaving in the middle of the night
and checking in
And I wouldn’t have to worry about
“friends” and associates and gray areas in between
I mean all that shit that I USE TO DREAM
well it would be a reality
in another time and place
our unity would be guaranteed
and the only thing you would see is me
rubbing my hands on your head
as you listened to me breath
just enjoying our space
In another time and place
I wouldn’t have to probe and wonder cause I would know
I have always been a fan of science fiction and fantasy
But some times you have to know when to let the quantum leap go
And recognize reality
See I can’t fast forward to the
Next Lifetime remix
And acknowledge my Dilemma
While forcing myself to only acknowledge being your friend
Flirting with harmless conversations with undertones
And surface tension is building
And endless scenarios
Refusing to give into that femme whim to capture you
To make you see that I can be…so much more
Cause that’s not my place
And I am not the one
So I compromise and carry my nonchalant ness as if I was royalty
And tell myself we can be boys
Though you discovered the vixen in me a little to soon for me to hide behind my
alter ego
Cause you know
And I know
But still I play with that fire
And in the same motion attempt to calm your flame
Inciting riots and running away
Feeling something so intense that it almost feels like a de ja vu
I have these distant memories of spending another life with you
Cause you are so familiar to me
Stuck in a wrinkle in time
In another time and place
We could have been friends
And then lovers and then
you could have shown me the beginning
when I became frustrated with the end
Agitating my orgasm through mental stimulation
And revolutionary fire
That creates a scent that is so familiar to you
That created a wonder and curiosity about what reason God brought me to you?
Cause I can’t really feel what it means
To have you
To love you
And I can’t really feel what it means
Take you in my arms and protectively hold you
That is not realistic
Gotta separate reality from my feelings
But fuck
My heart is a bit to willing
But my mind is right and I gotta pull back
Because maybe you were brought to my life to show me what the others lack
And maybe you were brought to me
Just to show me the possibilities
Of what could be
Without the incision of a lesbian trinity
Fighting visions of you
sitting by my side
and although we haven’t touched like that
you’ve already came deep inside of me
and I am feeling so so so so so so so so
touched
But damn…you are a bit to much
And it makes me want to run
Not walk away
Fuck the attraction
Cause this thing between us will create a chain reaction
Where neither of us will leave with a thing
And I’m not one to bring drama or inflict needless pain
So I’m complacent
With my thoughts and infinite possibilities
And the conversation that you’re giving me
Allowing me to see that my crush is not one sided
But rather set aside and harvested safely as not to create
Situations
Undesirable
To either one of us
In another time or place
I will sit on your lap and read to you and
Romance you
While breathing in that Issey Miyake
As you watch me
Watch you
Eye to eye
Already lying in the afterglow of feelings
But I can’t keep feeling
Cause this is not safe
and this is not another time
And another place
This is today
And you have something that can’t be put away and
Discussion of subtractions of other factors don’t exist
and I can’t even imagine turning back if we kissed
but when I hear your voice I VISUALIZE
you with me like
THAT
But I am awaken by the cold reality of facts
That are deadening and empty as disconnected phone
That this is today
and you may be a lot of things
but you are not alone.
