_____ by Cinnamon

I didn't just wake up one morning and change my sexual preference.
I have had these feelings as long as I can possibly reference.
I got married the first time to my childhood sweetheart.
Two years and two children later I decided it was time for us to part.
After about four years of being single.
I decided once again to get out and mingle.
I ran into a grade school friend.
And made the choice to take him in.
Once again I decided to marry as well.
And once again my life was pure hell.
So instead of me keeping a woman on the side.
I decided it was time for me to stop trying to hide.
It was time to stop being crazy and get my mind set.
To bring my black ass on out of that damn closet.
It wasn't a boy and it wasn't a man that my heart felt.
All it took was another woman to make my heart melt.
So when you turn up your nose and try to be mean.
Take a look at your life and see what's in your genes.
I'm not addicted to alcohol or strung out on crack.
So why in the hell want they get off my damn back.
I work everyday and take care of my boys.
So who are they to tell me what it is I enjoy.
So I decided to wake up and live my own life.
Never again am I going to be some niggas wife.
If you are not putting food on my table and a roof over my head.
Then why should you waste your time wondering who's sleeping in my bed.
So for those of you who want to look down on me and don't understand.
Educate yourselves baby because, I am who I am.

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