_____by InsatiableK

Why didn’t I see it, why didn’t I recognize? All of the signs pointed to
lies and deceit but I ignored them. I wanted to trust you, I wanted you to
know that I loved you and whatever she was telling you or doing to you would
not conquer our love. What a fool I was. The not coming home until I was
asleep, the constant phone calls and mention of wanting to hang out with
her. The looks, the feel of emptiness when u lay next to me in our bed, how
did I not see? I asked and begged you to tell me and you, once so innocent
and pure, looked me in the eye and said "baby I love you and want only you".

Now I’m going out of my head. I have prayed and cried and cried and prayed
and yet it is I who is hurting most. She has a woman and is out to conquer
and taste my woman, how can you not see that she is destroying my love for
thee. This whole situation is messed up, I thought we had a love that none
could touch. You who I thought to be my soul mate, wife and the love of my
life. Where did I go wrong? You say I wasn’t there for you, but how would
you know? You were always running towards her when you should have been
talking to me. Well I wish you the best for I am on a new quest. God is
changing me and healing me and I will be ok. I desire no more lies, no more
deceit only a woman who loves God and can love me, totally, truthfully,
faithfully and constantly. I am through with you.

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