_____ by Taryn J. Rubin

Trapped behind this massive consolidated wall
I long for the days that I can be me
The time that I can express myself,
The time that I will be free

A tiny hole in the wall keeps me going day by day.
For on the other side I see myself so beautiful, and gay.
The scene of my future brings me to ecstasy
How I wish to share this feeling, but there's no one next to me

A comprehensivly different world on that side
Because over here I'm made depressed and submissive
But over there I'm exhilarated and show pride

Why I was placed behind this wall I'll never know
I've tried to destruct it, but it just won't go
But in due time it will crumble to the filthy ground
And when it does it'll make this enchanting sound

I'll walk off into my future without looking back
Not hearing anymore of anyone's homophobic crap
It'll be the time that I will be me
The time when I'll finall be free

Note: As a teenager growing up as a lesbian, my "supposed" to be best years are made hell, by my religious mother and a few others. Always trying to get me to be someone else and breaking my spirit brings me to a state of depression and even sometimes submissiveness. (Sometimes I feel like giving in to being someone I'm not). Freedom was written to express how I feel about myself and life. I'm a teen who's trapped into being someone I'm not. The only thing tha thelps me to survive is my future. When my future is finally my present, I'll be on my way to freedom.

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