__________by Lovelybrown
I am not trying to stress you or get the best of you
but the truth be told
I’m digging you
Shit I like you
But
No I can’t come out and say it
And yes I realize this is a game that I’m playing
but baby
I am really digging you like some old comic
just rediscovered
Some traditional, fictional fairy tale where you’re prince charming and I’m the star crossed lover
But I gotta be cool and keep it under cover
Cause I know I can be a bit to intense
And I don’t won’t any sort of pretense
But yes
I’m sweating you
And yes I’m beating you know but probably can’t see
Us as an entity
So I walk on eggshells carefully
Trying not to seem simple and childish
But you make me feel so pre adolescent and giddy
But not in some puppy dogg sense of the word
But in a sense that everything I went through before with 3,1 and 2 led me to you
Sounds deep right
Still trying to get my mind right
Cause I see the motivation in you
Mental stimulation
I keep hesitating
Patiently waiting
Having questions
Fighting feelings
But you got me reeling and ready to jump in that pool
And drown with no life preserver
But I got to watch my heart and be precautious
But calls from her make me nauseous and nervous
But to her
I don’t think she sees
Me
And I don’t know how to be
Illusive
And mysterious and
I don’t know how to hide my feelings and
I don’t know how to play those games
And I can’t change…
How I feel
Cause it’s real and she makes me feel
Powerful
Feminine
Wholesome
And
Real
But I’m invisible
Holding it in
Trying to get to know her
But already skipping past the stage of friends
Scared of getting rejected
But with her I feel so protected
But steadily trying to be strong
Prolonging the answer to the questions that lie in my head
replaying images in my head
Of being with you and knowing you and feeling you and you actually seeing me
Past some silly ass crush
See I want to be the desire of your lust
and your heart
We always want to recreate impressions after the start
But to me you’re like a work of art
That I am desperately trying to analyze
As I baptize my unclean feelings in a pool
Trying to purge myself of cravings
that unsatisfied
Cause
U can’t see it through my eyes
Only a school girl crush.
