__________by Jaye Jones
What is it bout love? I have found that word in some real weird places. To
start off w/ a loser for about 5 yrs and now w/ a
sexy stud who's in da navy....she and I fell in love w/in
a 6 hr phone conversation....we never met before...but just
speakin to her on the phone made sense...we both were in
relationships and going threw issues...but it didn't stop
us from loving one anuffa....we could speak about anything
and everything....the first time we met it felt like we had
to fight ourselves from making love to each other that day.....
she looked @ me w/ piercin and sexy eyes....I took a shower infront
her and felt so comfortable...seeing as most BBW's have
insecurities about their bodies...w/ her I felt none....
w/in the next visit....she and I made passionate love for
about 6 hrs...it was so intense, so spiritual, so beautiful,
that I cried w/ pleasure, my neighbors where knockin
b/c I was xtremely loud....she took my senses to another level
she made love to me and made everything negative go away...
she said she never had love made to her the way I did, so we
met on a common ground that night...after 2 weeks she was
moved in w/ my mom and I...we lived 2getha lovin each
otha and experiencing the many joys of being in a lesbian
relationship....but things were bad...for she had left her
gurl 2 be w/ me, but i couldn't leave mine alone....I was scared
@ the time b/c I only knew my ex's love...she was my first love
and to most you are naive when it comes to the first loves'....I hurt
my new love being sooo stupid...stupidity took over and I was far from the
obvious, which was my stud who made love to me for 6 hours w/out a
problem....I wanted to be w/ my stud....she made sense she was the best, but
i couldn't let go of my first...so as time went on Cesha
everything negative that i placed on her heart, I hurt her for about 1 whole
yr...while lovin 2 women i was stuck
i knew where I wanted 2 be but 2 get there felt so far....I was lovin
Cesha, she treated me like a Queen, She made my world gentle,
she made my bed warmer, she made my mornings filled w/ rose
petals in my bed for my naked body...she was free and filled w/ life.....afta
over 1 yr i came 2 my senses but it was tooo late...for Cesha had enough of
my stupidity and moved out, went bakk to her mothers place.....I cried...i
died that day....I lost everything that day...she broke up w/ me and thatwas
that....we still spoke but I was beggin to hav her bakk lovin me, being my
Cesha, my teddy, I needed her love....she went to the Navy andwe didn't speak
after that....I then drowned myself into my room....never went out, never
thought about another, never wanted nor needed anothers touch b/c herz was
the best....I was in love w/ her.....then 1 day 2 months or so later, I got a
letter from her in the navy...I was so scared to open it, and as soon as I
was about to open it the phone rang, and it was her....WHOA!!! I was lost, I
couldnt' speak...I didn't know what to say, I froze, she spoke the whole
time...my mouth was open the whole convo....after the call we got off en' i
opened da letter, she missed me....she still thought about me.....I was
over-joyed....after speaking to her on the phone for bout 3 months or so, i
flew out to Chicago to visit her on my 21st b-day....it was the happiest day
of my life....when I saw her, I cried, I wanted to never leave her...my
weekend w/ her rekindled so much....we made love passionately as if it was
our first time...she made love to me longer then 6 hours, she made me cum at
lease 16 times, I felt relieved...we got bakk 2getha and are now living a
long distance relationship
hurt her deeply but she still wants to be w/ me....it's even harder now b/c
she is not the same person that i fell in love w/ that 1 yr and change ago, I
have hurt her sooo much that she is a different woman all 2getha, she's not
the 1 i fell in love w/....and now things have changed and I have to learn to
love the person that she is now....and it's hard....I am still lovin my
stud.....Cesha here I am baby....
