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.....we left off with Maxine at the door nude, with Lisa her ex standing in the doorway.

"Well.......are you gonna let me inside?" Lisa said with a mischievous look on her face. "No I am not letting you in...go away!" I said as I slammed the door. I headed upstairs, took the porn tape out of the VCR, and climbed in the bed. I was fucking furious, but not ashamed about being naked. I did not care about Lisa seeing me exposed....I only wanted Terri at that door. I wanted Terri badly. I stuck a pillow between my lonely legs and tried to fall asleep.

The phone ranged after fifteen minutes, and Lisa's voice was on the other end. "Look Maxine, before you hang up on me, please look in your living room for my ring," "It must have fell off my finger while I was visiting you earlier." "Lisa are you still out side my fucking door?!" I screamed into the telephone. "Yes...and I won't leave until you look." she said in a calm yet defiant tone. I hung up the phone and went downstairs. There it was, her ring on the carpet blazing at me.

This time I had my robe on tightly. I picked up the ring and headed to the door. Lisa was by her car a black Lincoln LS with a black dress on and some nice black pumps. I stood in the doorway, holding the ring out to her. She sashayed her hips walking towards me, and she took the ring. "Thank you Maxie-I hope I did not disturb anything." She said looking up towards my window. "No you did not, I was about to take a shower." "Ooh.......may I join you?" she said with a wink at me. She was pouting her lips seductively. As she looked at my half exposed breasts, she traced her own with her perfectly manicured fingers.

"Don't play me cheap bitch, I am involved and happy-this town is filled with available women!" I spat at her like a bag of shit. Lisa had some nerve thinking I'd fall for her come on's. Sure she was attractive as hell, but we had our moment and it was over. I said to myself, tightening my robe up more. "Oh I'll be your bitch...I'll take anything you dish out." "I deserve it.....I hurt you....God how I regret doing what I did." "I want you back Maxie...we're older, more mature....we could have a fulfilling life." She said with such remorse if I talked more to her I'd believe her.

"I am involved with Terri.....and you might as well face it!" I slept with you a year ago and it was for revenge." I wanted to see how weak you were." "So don't give me that we're older mess!" "When opportunity presents itself you jump Lisa!" "It doesn't matter who-just as long as they can get you off...it's okay." I said looking at her with disgust. Lisa stood there as the tears welled up in her eyes. "I made a foolish, foolish mistake!" "I thought the younger the better!" "With both of us focused on our careers at the time, we spent less time together." "Someone else saw neglect, and it was Glenda." "So during the times when you worked late, going out of town all the time, hardly touching me...I found comfort in her." She said as tears dropped on her clothes.

"Well this is where communication came in, so you could have talked to me." "You decided to deceive our love then, so let's just continue to move on." I said to her. "Just as I was about to shut the door, Terri's car pulled into the driveway. Terri got out of the car, and walked up to Lisa and me. She brushed past Lisa and stood in front of me. "You did not waste anytime did you?" she said looking me up and down. "I tried to call you, to tell you I was leaving Curtis today, but no way now!" she screamed at me. "Don't call me, get your damn hair done somewhere else, and I mean it!" she screamed so loud I thought she would lose her voice. "It is not what you think!" I said trying to grab her hand. "Come in the house...come in Teri!" I said. She snatched her hand from me with hate in her eyes.

"Hell no...I am not coming in there!" she screamed more as she turned to Lisa. "She is all yours now!" Terri yelled to Lisa. Calmly Lisa extended her hand to shake Terri's. "Thank you!" Lisa said in a cool manner. I interrupted them, hoping a fight did not break out. "Lisa came over here to pick up her ring, that slipped off her finger when she visited earlier." I said to Terri hoping she would calm down. "Terri... Maxie is telling the truth......honestly." Lisa said. "I will also say this...if you leave now....you are gonna make my job easier...cause I want her back!" Lisa said defiantly looking at me. I was totally speechless. Terry walked past Lisa, got in her car, and sped off. Lisa looked at me, blew me a kiss and went to her car. "Call me Maxie if you need me.....even if to talk." Lisa said and got into her car.

I shut my door, and walked toward the kitchen. In my 15 years of being open about my sexuality, I became wiser. I had to respect myself. If Terri did not believe that I wanted her-cool. I gave two years of my fucking time, knowing she had a man. I gave two years of my time waiting on her to leave his sucka ass! I gave two years of my time introducing her to pleasure. I loved her, but now I had to wonder how deep the love was for me. Then there was Lisa. Lisa was my first serious love. Before her I had partners here or there-just casual alliances. Lisa was everything to me-then. She should have come to me before acting on her affair. Now she was back offering me what I wanted from Terri. After smoking two cigarettes back to back, I climbed the stairs to my bedroom-alone.

The next day, I got to work and there were flowers on my desk. I opened the card.... I knew they were from Terri. Finally she was the one the make the peace. I said to myself opening the card with a big smile on my face. "Here's to a beautiful woman....a beautiful person...from someone who would never share herself with a man....love Lisa. "Lisa?!!!" I said aloud. I tore the card up frowning about to cry . The flowers would stay at the office, but not go home with me-in case Terri showed up. I started my day off with black coffee, and a better sense of purpose. Terri would call...she just had to.....this time....

After work, I drove past Terri's shop. Her car was there. I wanted to stop, but I decided not too! I drove home and checked my machine. There was no messages, so I watched some television. I warmed up some leftovers, and enjoyed a movie. My thoughts were of Terri and I missed her terribly. The phone rang, and I jumped to my feet to get it. When I answered, the person hung up. I pushed call return and the number was not traceable. I finished my food, and went upstairs to bed-alone. I was tired of spending my nights alone!

The rest of the week was quiet. No bothers from Lisa...no calls from Terri. When I got home in the evenings, I saw Lisa on television. She did the news at 10pm, so this is what was keeping her busy from bothering me. I admired her professionalism for journalism, but that was about it. I felt nothing for her. As usual I ate my food and went upstairs to bed alone. Terri had not called me, so I knew she must be still mad, or waiting on me-but I was not calling.

It had gone on a month and I was getting horny. I was very horny. Lisa called me the other night giving me her new address and phone number. I was not about to call her though. I had enough of porn tapes, enough of waiting on Terri to call...I needed some sex. I looked through this local magazine called SEASONS. There was an escort service for lesbians and I called. I made an appointment for tonight, I got into my car after dressing and drove to the hotel. I had on a blue sheath dress, and I requested the lady to have on something nice.

The hotel was five star. We had dinner come up to our suite. She was lovely. She was very fair, about 170 pounds like myself, and she stood 5"7. She was dressed in a white satin dress, and clear stilettos. We dined on steak, potatoes, and veggies. We had endless bottles of chardonnay...about four to be exact. After the meal, we danced to some light jazz. Her work name was "Dazzle" and she was dazzling. As we danced, she started to kiss my neck. I fell under her spell. My hand gripped her ass, and it was soft....very soft. Then we tongue danced, and I knew this was going to be a good night.

Dazzle turned her back to me, and I unzipped her dress. The white satin material slipped down to her legs, and she stepped away from the bundle of satin on the floor. I turned, and she unzipped me kissing my back. Dazzle was completely naked. Her body was flawless. I sucked her nipples, letting my tongue flick back and forth. She held my head closer to her. She was divine. We moved slowly to the bed, and I laid her down. I proceeded to kiss her in the mouth again, and she recieved me wildly. Our bodies were moving together, and her moans were driving me wild.

"I want to taste you Maxine.....kneel on the bed in the doggy-style position over me." I did as she instructed...I kneeled over her on the king-size bed, and she began to love me. Dazzle took her tongue pointedly over my ass-hole. I was feeling sooo right at this point. She circled my anal area over and over, and I was moving my ass to match her rhythm. Then she began to lick my outer pussy walls, as she fingered my wet pussy. "Ooh it's creamy baby....give dazzle that pussy." she said in a seductive whisper. "Oh yeah...fuck it.....suck it baby...don't stop....ooh.....ah.......oh baby um hmmm." I said trying to gasp for some air.

I rolled off her, and dived between her legs, her pussy was nice and wet! I did the sucking motion, because there was so much to get into my mouth. She kept the rivers flowing, and I was not missing a drop. She was really into this, and I could tell. Dazzle's ass moved up and down ...on and off the mattress. We came after 30 minutes, and then she said she wanted more. Dazzle walked over to her bag, and pulled out a strap on. It was pure Black, and thick with ridges on it. I strapped it on, and I fucked her. "Oh yes.......slam it baby up in my pussy.....oooh yeah.....oh God...oh God....oooh....oh yeah.....um......um..." she said as I pumped her. As she was about to come, I pulled out. I jumped between her legs, and I clamped a hold of her pussy. It was like a eruption.......it was thick, and I was getting it all.

We laid in each others arms, and talked about A to Z. It had gone on 4 hours, and my time was up. Dazzle had alot of energy, and I enjoyed the time. It was money well spent. We took a shower together, and she gave me more head in the shower. I was loving it, I needed this, and I did not regret it. We got dressed in the midst of stealing kisses from one another. We were like little children in a candy store. As she got ready to go, she gave me a long kiss, and a card. "Call me baby...anytime." Dazzle said left. In those four hours, she melted some of my pain away, and brought out vibrant feelings in me.

I met up with Dazzle every week, and despite not hearing from Terri I was cool. Deep inside I knew I wanted to see Terri, but I could not bring myself to make the move. From time to time I would get hang ups at my home, but I did not ponder too hard on it. It was going on two months now, and Terri was not budging nor was I. One day I called for Dazzle, and they said she did not work there anymore. I was devastated. I was in need, and I was getting use to our meetings. She could talk on any level, and I liked that. I tried to tell her to find another profession, but she would cut me off. Guess you can call me a hypocrite, but I felt she deserved more. Sometimes she would not take the whole amount of money from me. I knew she liked me...this is why I could not understand her disappearing like that.

Well I was devastated, so I drank heavily. I put in a tape, and it did nothing for me. I needed flesh...I wanted some loving. My desperate mode was coming on, so I called Lisa. Her voicemail came on, so I hung up. I was very glad she did not pick up. I would have regretted that shit! Then I got into my car, and I headed to the shop-Terri's shop. It was a wednesday, and the time was 6:45. When I got there, no other car was there but hers. I got out of my truck, and I walked in. When she saw me, she looked expressionless. "Look....get the hell out!" she said counting her money. "Look, I don't know what I am doing here, but hear me out." I said. "Make it quick Maxine, I have to go!" she said getting her lotion bottle out. "I miss you baby, can you say you missed me?" I said looking at her rubbing the lotion on her thighs. "No...not even a little bit." she said finishing up with her legs. "You are lying...I know you were calling my house hanging up!" I yelled. "Prove it!" she said getting her bag, going toward the door. "I am heterosexual...I've always been that way!" "I love Curtis.....I admit you turned me on, but I've had time to think on this." "I'm a little freaky, and you were giving me what I needed at the time." "But nah...this is not for me....so forget it." she said indifferently. I moved in front of her, stopping her from opening the door. "Oh so what now, you gonna strip me down, and lick me?" "Well come on then do it...I bet you have the strap on...to give me some dick!" she said as she backed away from the door. "You are disgusting!" I yelled to her.

"Oh let's not play Maxine....come on. Terri said as she unbuttoned her blouse. I stood there motionless. "Maxine...come on...for old time sake....but I am not leaving Curtis. she said stripping down. Terri was in her bra and panties. I felt cold, and cheap. Terri had done it again. I stood there motionless. By now she was screaming at me to take her, and I did not. My light had come on in my head. Terri loved the chase, she loved me taking her forcefully, it was just sex, something different. She wanted from me, what Curtis did not give. He was too busy doing his own thing, using her money, her body, her car to do what he wanted. I wanted to walk away, but I could not.

Finally I found my voice. "I came here to talk with you, not sex even though I am horny, but to talk." I said to her. "I chase, while you run." "I do what Curtis won't do...well not tonight, not ever. I said turning toward the door. Terri grabbed for me, and pulled me to the floor. I was too weak...too hurt to fight her. Terri had crushed me, I was a broken soul. "You know you want this...you know you do!" she said to me as she undid my blouse. Part of me wanted to take her, but I could not move. The light was clearer and clearer as the moment passed. She never said she loved me, just acting like a mad woman. Terri started to suck my titties, while she unzipped my pants. We were on the floor like fucking animals. It was a fucked up scene for real. I let her remove my pants, and panties. She hungrily gave me passion. I accepted it, like a fucking ho. I gave into this meaningless lust, and I opened wide.

I pushed her head deep into my fucking pussy. I had begun to get mad. I wanted revenge for the two years, she played me like a fucking cheap fuck!!!! "Um hm...you like it Maxine...you missed me....I want you to take all of my pussy juices....I want you to lick me so good Maxine.....I hope you are ready for me after I get some more of this ass!" Terri's words sickened me as she went along sucking me off. No words of love, just what I could do to her. She was between my pussy cause she had to, not because she wanted to. Terri knew she was the one who wanted the chase on again...for her only. When she saw I would not grab for her, as I usually do, she stayed between my legs. Between licks, she was telling me how ready she was for me to fuck her. As she proceeded to climb on my face, I pushed her back and got up.

I went for my pants, and she snatched them back. "What about me?!!!" she screamed. "What about you?" I said sarcastically. "You know." she said softly trying to gain composure. She moved to the couch, and opened her legs wide. I could see her pussy...it was wet and inviting. She fingered herself, and then pulled her wet fingers out, and held them out for me to lick them. This whole scene I tell you was fucked up as hell! There she was on the fucking couch, legs wide open, and my pants in her hands. I slipped my panties up and put my blouse on shaking my head, and I grabbed for my pants. As Terri snatched them back, the seam tore. "Oops!" she said laughing. Turning away from her, I walked out of her salon to my truck with my panties on. "Don't you leave me!" "Don't you fucking walk away from me!" Terri said walking after me. "I just licked you up, and you get your ass back in here and fuck me....fuck me!" she screamed. As I got in my car, she banged on the window. "You look crazy without your pants!" she screamed with crazy laughter. "Nah...you look crazier in the street with your man looking at you holding my pants...hearing all that you said. Terri looked back mortified. Curtis started cursing her out! I drove off, and I did not look back.

It had been six months since my episode with Terri. Seems Curtis left her, and she was alone. Oh she called, harassing me, then I changed my number. Lisa found a good woman, and we became civil. We made amends to the past and whenever we would end up in the same business circles, it was like I said civil. Dazzle and I are together. Through our talks, she remembered where I worked. One day she showed up, and we were together ever since. Dazzle's name is Didra. She is 33, and a buyer for retail stores. She's been in the life since 18, and that escort was her way of living out her fantasies. She said she quit, after a month of our sessions. She said she fell in love with me, and did not take on more assignments. To see if her feelings were real, she stayed away from me, but as time went on she knew she had really fallen for me.

We are taking things really slow, she has her own place and I have mine, for now. I need to fully get over this mess I dealt with. I think we will be okay, because we have a lot in common. It is not all about the sex either. We complete each other. What defines me? My character, my respect for myself, and love for myself. I no longer feel cheap, I no longer lust, but love. I no longer chase, but go with the flow. I let go of the pain, and let in the peace. Terri is my past. Didra is my peace. I am at peace. Every once in a while, I laugh at that scene with Terri running to my truck, and I in my truck with panties on. Oh well...we live and we learn, and believe me I have learned.

Maxine....the survivor.....


THE END

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