Ok so I was a shy person, although I loved the ladies. The hardest part was getting up enough courage to talk to them. That was one of my flaws, my shyness. I have had my share of relationships all of them ending in me getting hurt, but I wouldn't let that get me down. I believe there is someone out there for everyone.
See I had been working at this new job for about a year and from when I first started I had this ultimate crush on one of my co-workers, Lucky. I liked everything about her. She was the type of person who was always happy and always joking around until something got her down. However she would still try to make the best out of a bad situation. That was what attracted me to her in the first place I believe. The way she handled situations. I always enjoyed working whenever she was there. Just working with her would lighten up my day. We would always play like we were going together. Just little comments here and there about us being together the night before or something like that. Although, I wanted it to be the truth I never thought of it as more than just joking.
However though I never thought of her as being nothing but straight, but oh how I wanted her to be a lesbian or at least curious. The whole time I was working I never got up the courage to ever approach her. However, I always wondered about her. When I stopped working there I still went back from time to time just to see how things were going. Really I went back to see her, but she didn't have to know that. Every time I saw her I had this secret desire for her to approach me, but to my dismay she never did.
One night while hanging out with friends I decided to call and see was a friend working that night. On the other end of the phone a sweet voice said, "hello."
"Is Sherrica working tonight?"
"No, she's off tonight."
"Who is this, Lucky?"
"Yeah, who is this?"
"Now I know you know who this is."
"Who T?"(That was her nickname for me).
"Hey girl how you doing?"
I said, "fine just trying to make it." Trying to make it with her.
We talked for awhile on the phone and she gave me her phone number. We soon hung up because she had to go to work. I wasn't too far from where she worked. I was intent on seeing Lucky tonight. I knew what time she would get off so I decided to drop by to talk to her before they closed. I went in and she spotted me and immediately came out to talk to me since she wasn't busy.
We talked for awhile about little trivial things. I wanted to tell her so bad that I had a crush on her but I just couldn't. I couldn't tell Lucky that I secretly desired her and wanted to be inside of her. That could make her back away. Soon though I would tell her the truth.
A couple of weeks went by and I decided to call Lucky up and see was she working tonight if not maybe I could try to go out with her somewhere and then I would tell her. As the phone rung I began contemplating on what I would say to her. Soon that sweet voice said, "Hello." Knowing whom it was I went on and asked to speak to Lucky.
She said, "This is she."
"How are you doing?" I said.
"How did you know it was me?"
"I know that voice from anywhere," she said.
Lucky and I held a conversation for awhile and I finally got up the courage to ask her was she working tonight. To my dismay she said she was. I told her I was hoping that we could get together and go out and have some fun. She told me that she would be getting off of work earlier than usual and if I was willing to pick her up from work and take her home we could chill at her place for awhile. I said Okay. She told me she was scheduled to get off at 8:00 but to come around 8:30 seeing as it being the weekend and she knew that they would be busy. I humbly agreed.
I began getting ready for our get together. The whole time I was thinking how and when I was going to tell her the news. The only thing was sure about is that is was going to be tonight when I told her. I got out the shower and began putting on my clothes. I went to her job with my black jeans with white trim and a white T-shirt. I was sitting waiting for her to come out nervous and excited all at the same time.
Finally this beautiful, brown-complexion female comes out. Lucky was looking sexy as hell.
"Hey," she said as she was getting into the car.
"Hey," I replied. "Was work tiresome today or was it a pretty slow day?"
"It was alright." She said. "I'm just ready to get home and chill."
I was thinking I want to chill with her anytime. On the way to her house we stopped to get some Chinese food, we were both kind of hungry. We talked a little bit more on what was going on in our lives.
We finally arrived at Lucky's house and went in.
"Have a seat on the couch, while I get us some plates."
"Okay, do you need any help with anything?"
"No, I can handle it."
By this time I was getting even more nervous because the night had finally begun and I still didn't know how I was going to tell her about the way I felt.
We sat around eating and holding a conversation. I was still trying to figure out how to tell her. After eating we sat on the couch and Lucky put in a video. The whole time I was just staring at her and thinking about how I was going to tell her. Finally I just decided that I would do it and if she didn't want to be associated with me anymore then I would just have to accept that and deal with it.
"Lucky there is something I have to tell you."
"I really don't know how to say it so I'm just going to come out and say it. Lucky, for a long time I've had a crush on you. I've wanted you since I started working with you. I understand if you don't want to talk to me anymore, but I felt that I needed to tell you how I felt."
Lucky just starred at me without a word. Will you please say something. I said, getting nervous about her silence.
"What do you want me to say? It's kind of hard to respond to something like that. I knew that your were a lesbian already so that is not going to make me stop talking to you."
"How did you know?"
"I asked Sherrica and she told me she didn't know but I knew that she really did know she just didn't want to tell me. It is not going to make me think any less of you I'm just glad you came on out and told me."
"So what happens now?" I asked.
"We finish watching the movie."
I said okay not sure what to think. Soon we fell asleep watching television. When I awoke it was 2:00 a.m. Lucky was lying in my lap asleep. She looked so beautiful. However I felt it was time for me to go.
"Huh?" she said in a sleepy voice.
"I think it is time for me to go home and time for you to go to bed."
"No, I don't want you out driving this time of night, just stay here for tonight."
"Are you sure?" I said.
"Yeah, you can go home tomorrow."
So we started getting ready to call it a night. The whole time I was just thinking what it would be like to just sleep next to Lucky holding her in my arms all night. Then I quickly came back to reality.
"You can sleep in the spare bedroom."
Since I found out that I was staying there I found myself wide-awake.
"I'm going to get into the shower before going to bed, so you can just go on and get into bed if you want."
"Okay." I said.
I was just picturing her in the shower after she left the room. Since I had on boxers
I just took off my pants and hopped into bed. I was just listening to the water in the bathroom and picturing it running all over her body. I couldn't go to sleep all I could think about was one thing and that was making love to Lucky.
I heard the shower stop and the bathroom door open. After that it was just quiet. I was just wishing that she would come into my room and we could make love all night long. I finally got comfortable lying in the bed by myself. Just picturing Lucky in my head turned me on so much and she was only in the next room, but yet so far away.
All my hopes of ever having a chance with her disappeared after our earlier conversation when she told me that she was interested in someone who she just found out recently was interested in her. I wanted to know so bad who it was just to see was
they worth what they might be gaining in her.
During the night a thunderstorm and lightning storm had began. I remembered when I was little I used to be afraid of the storms but as I grew older the more comfortable I got. I considered myself one of the lucky ones because some adults are still afraid of the storms to this day. What I did not know was that Lucky was one of those few. She came into the room, I wasn't really sleep anyway.
"T, wake up."
"What is it?" I said.
"Can I sleep with you, until the storm is over?"
"Sure, come on."
Lucky crawled in front of me, with her back facing me. Whenever thunder sounded and lightning flashed she would jump. Pretty soon she backed into me and finally she grabbed my hand and wrapped it around her.
"It makes me feel better if I can feel someone next to me. You don't mind do you?"
She just didn't know how much I didn't mind.
"Are you sure that you are comfortable?" I said.
"Yeah, I'm fine."
I could smell the scent of her hair, and the smell of the soap she used all over her skin. We weren't really sleepy anymore, so we just talked a little bit more. I know what you're thinking we do a lot of talking. Yeah, that is true but every minute of it is worth it if it allows me to spend time with her.
"T, I know you're wondering who's the person I've been talking about."
Trying to play it off, I said, "No, not really."
"Don't lie yes you are."
"Well kind of."
Lucky turned towards me, now we were face to face. It seemed like we were so close I could almost hear her heartbeat. Lucky sat propped up on her arm facing me, Oh how I wanted to kiss her so bad. I was still lying down on my side. All of a sudden Lucky rubbed my face with her hand. Her hands felt so good rubbing on my face.
She then bent down and kissed me on the lips. She caught me off guard but that was what I liked. I quickly returned the kiss. Our tongues were intertwined with one another. With every moment she kissed me more passionately than before. She moved even closer to me.
"T, the person I was talking about was you. I've been in love with you from the very beginning." With tears in her eyes she continued. "Even while I was with my boyfriend.."
I cut her off with a kiss. We both were really getting emotional. I rolled over and positioned myself on top of her. All the while still kissing her passionately. I began kissing her on her neck. I cupped her breast in my hand and began sucking on her nipples. She began to moan, which turned me on more.
I was taking my time because I wanted this night to last forever. I kissed her all over her body, from her ear down to her stomach. I kissed her on the inside of her thighs. I finally flicked her clit with my tongue. "Hmmm," She said as I entered her wetness with two fingers. She started moving her hips with the motion of my fingers. All the while I was still licking her
clit. She wrapped her hands around my head and pushed my head farther into her wetness.
"Ooooh, T. Oh yeah baby yes."
Her pace began to quicken as my tongue quickened. Her thighs tightened around my head.
"Oh baby, I'm coming. Yes! Oh T!"
She finally collapses on the bed in satisfaction. Afterward we're just lying there holding each other. "I love you T." Something I've been wanting her to say since forever.
"I Love you too Lucky."
She began kissing me even more passionately. "It's your turn now," She said.
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