__________by Lovelybrown

There was something funny that happened that I never could expect
I got a call late night from the ex
My hands became drenched in seat
Yeah, I still loved her, but I had to get my feelings in check
And evaluate the situation
Cause I was peaceful and complacent in a better situation
Or was it safer, cause I remember all the love I gave her
And the hurt she gave me
Yet I was happier being with her and living in grief
But I can’t cheat...even though I still feel like she is part of me
I want to be that and so much more
But I can’t walk out the doors and neither can she
Calling saying she needs me, and wants to spend with me the rest of her life
While current lover continually asks me to be her wife
I remember when I was sad and alone
Now everyone wants to make me their home
And I thought I’d end up bitter and alone
But want to be with her
But I’m scared of getting hurt and flirting with desire
Maybe my heart is just on fire and tired of arguing with this one
I remember when making Love was fun
But now its gone away I can’t be an actor in her play, yet I feel like I am
Damned if I do
Damned if I remain in her hands
Love is suppose to be forever, but I don’t understand
Continually trying to factor in my
Ex-factor.

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