Read Part 1 of Coming Out
It took me a few days to go back over to her crib. I have to admit I was a little afraid of the
feelings I had for her. Just being around her was driving me crazy. Shea had a way of getting to
me without really trying. She had the most beautiful smile, and her eyes - I always got lost in
It seemed like I was always at their place on the weekends, and me and Shea always found some
time to be alone. Then one night Shea and Rox came over to my place...I have one of the old
houses with the big rooms and high ceilings. In the summer time I leave the front door open to
catch the breeze through the screen door. People walking by can't see into the house because of
the shrubs. It was one of those warm summer nights so I had the door open and the fan going. We
sat around shooting the bull, getting high, and listening to music the normal stuff.
Rox and I were seated on the couch, Shea was sitting in this cute little swivel chair I had on the
other side of the coffee table facing us. It was so peaceful outside that night other than the music
the only noise was the hum of the fan. We sat there damn near in total silence it was as if we were
praying for Rox to fall asleep. True to herself she did, we sat there for awhile just mind fucking
each other. I couldn't take it any longer I got up and walked over to where she was, I could tell
she was a little nervous because Rox was there on the couch in plain eye sight. I had that hungry
look in my eyes, I wanted her bad and she knew it. Our eyes were locked on each others, I
thought I was pretty smooth until I kicked the fan, she giggled. I recovered quickly, I leaned over
her and braced myself on the arms of the chair. I gently kissed her on the forehead then I kissed
her over one eye then the other...I kissed her nose and planted kisses on her cheeks, and finally I
lightly kissed her on the lips. Each time I kissed her I paused before moving to the next spot.
When I finished showering her with kisses I took her chin in my hand and tilted her face to meet
mine, she slowly opened her eyes and looked at me I could see the desire written all over her face.
I stepped back and offered her my hand; she took it and I led her into the bedroom. I sat back
against the heater and I pulled her close to me, when our lips touched a wave of passion so deep
swept over us; our tongues began a magical dance. The heater wasn't on but the heat that radiated
from us was almost stifling. In 1 smooth and fluid motion that surprised even me my hands slid up
her thighs, lifting her skirt slightly, her skin was so smooth and her ass felt so good in my hands. I
gave each cheek a gentle squeeze, a low moan escaped from deep within her. I felt that throbbing
sensation in between my legs, things were beginning to get a little heated so I guided her to the
bed, she stopped me just short of the bed.
Don't she whispered, I barely heard her I was so caught up in the moment. She was obviously
flustered and was trying to gain her composure. I let my hands slide slowly from under her skirt,
running across her thighs... and bringing them around her waist. How I wanted to pull her panties
off and feel her heat against my bare hand. I buried my face into the nape of her neck and began to
gently kiss, lick and suck. I could feel the desire building up within her, I felt her knees give way
and I leaned into her and we fell onto the bed. Damn she felt sooo good beneath me. We
continued to kiss, grind and bask in the scent of one another. I was completely lost in her and was
close to going over the edge when she stopped.
Umm, Jones, Jones I gotta go Rox might wake-up. No you don't she's knocked out I whispered
back ignoring her and sticking my tongue in her ear. She moaned out my name Jooones, pleeease
stop, don't make me beg. That turned me on even more but, I knew she was right and I gave in. I
didn't want to and it took every ounce of restraint I had to let her up. She walked over to the
dresser, and looked in the mirror.
Jones I hope you didn't mark up my neck.
Don't worry I didn't. I watched her fix her clothing.
Can I use your comb?
Yes. I walked up behind her while she combed her hair, I pressed up against her running my hands
up to her breasts. She tried to pull away from me but I held her tighter and began kissing her
gently on the back of her neck. She leaned against me, Umm, Jones you are something else, you
sure you never been with a woman before? Yes I replied you're the first. My desire was still
strong and I wanted her badly, she gently pushed me away. I stood in the doorway and left her
alone to finish getting herself together
When she was finished she walked over to where I was standing... she could see the pained look
on my face. She kissed me gently on the cheek and ran her hand up my arm and cupped my
breasts. Instinctively my arms wrapped around her waist. Looking me dead in the eyes she said -
Jones I want you I do but it's not the right time, Rox is right in the next room. To tell the truth at
that point I didn't give a damn about Rox being there. All I know is that I wanted this woman
right now more than I wanted anything else in my entire life. In my mind Rox just had to go she
was fuckin' up everything.
Listen to me I'm the one intruding on their life right? No I was invited in.
The next few days, weeks, and months were pure torture, all this kissing, hugging and grinding is
driving me insane. I'm all for foreplay but daym when was I going to get to taste her juices. Not
that I had ever been with a woman before but somehow I knew it was not going to be a problem.
Things are starting to get real complicated now. The tension between us at work is obvious and I
know anybody that paid us any attention could see the desire in our eyes and could feel the heat
between us...including Rox. Rox knows I want her gyrl but she never catches us saying or doing
anything, but I know she senses it. I can't say I can blame her for being pissed, but if she was
handling her business at home she wouldn't have to worry about her gyrl straying. We were
playing a dangerous game I know and seeing as how I really didn't know anything about this new
life I was exploring I probably wasn't thinking straight when it came to Shea, but I couldn't help
it... I was in love with her and the only thing I cared about was making her happy.
I spent the next year treating Shea like the queen I believed she was. Doing all the things Rox
should have been doing for her, but wasn't. I cleaned her car from top to bottom, inside and out, I
mean I took the seats out, scrubbed the dash board with a toothbrush until it was like new. I even
got it painted, I gave her money, bought her clothes, I gave her whatever she wanted. It wasn't
even about sex I truly loved this woman and I had convinced myself she would actually leave Rox
and be with me. The fool was I.
Did I mention Rox has a little bit of a temper. Yeah she was kind of abusive towards Shea, and I
couldn't figure out for the life of me why Shea stayed with her. I was offering her so much more, I
wasn't trying to hear that mess about she was in love with her; no it was more like she was scared
to death of her. Shea would tell Nan our mutual friend at work all the crazy shit that Rox would
do to her and how she never wanted her to go anywhere and never did anything for her, Nan of
course turned around and told me. Shea wouldn't tell me because I once told her if I ever caught
Rox laying a hand on her I would hurt her.
One day during a break at work the 3 of us were outside chillin', I offered Shea some chips and
handed her the bag. It was an innocent gesture, but the next thing I knew Rox had grabbed Shea
by the throat, I'm not even sure what that was all about. I was stunned, I knew she had hit on her
before but I never thought she would be bold enough to do it in public let alone in front of me! I
got up from where I was sitting I took a step toward Rox, and she let her go. The look on my
face told it all, I'm not a violent person and I don't believe in hitting on women but I swear I
would have beat Rox to a pulp if she hadn't let her go when she did. Rox had this scared look on
her face for a second, then she tried to play it off but she knew I wasn't having it. I was pissed and
was still ready to tear her ass up. Shea stepped in-between us and looked at me with pleading
eyes...It's okay she was only playing. Playing!? I looked at her like she was crazy...what did she
take me for? I turned and walked away.
After that incident I tried to get Shea to leave Rox, but she wouldn't, she was scared. Finally after
2 years of chasing her, doing all the things with and for her that her woman should have done, I
gave up on her. I told her I was moving away, I couldn't stand being so close to her and never
really being able to be with her. She was hurt, wanted to know why I was leaving her? Can you
believe that? She had put me through pure HELL!!! waiting for her to come to me knowing she
never would. I mean how long was I supposed to wait? Shea was the first woman to steal my
heart and I wanted her to be a part of my life in the worst way, but I knew if I stayed I would be
the one to suffer the most.
I still think of her from time to time and I thank her for helping me out of the dark.
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