She came around and I didnít want anyone around her.
I didnít want her phone to ring because she mayÖ
I wanted her happy.
I wanted her to love me.
My mouth got me in trouble with her
My snappy attitude. But I really just wanted to tell her.
Let me take care of you.
Let me just love you.
Let me rub you down after your military workout.
But I was too stingy.
I wanted her all for myself.
But she is a free spirit.
That loves to be around people
That loves to loved.
I told her I didnít want her friendship.
When I wanted to tell her that I didnít just want your friendship.
I want your heart.
I want your touch.
Because I donít want anything less from you.
But I had to settle for less but now she is gone.
I have alienated her from me.
I have let her see how stingy I was.
But I just wanted her like a child wants a piece of candy in a candy store.
She was my lollipop that I wanted to have.
To lick slow
To show others they donít have what I have
But I threw a tantrum
I kicked and screamed
So I was given another lollipop
With a lesser value
With a not as sweet taste
But I will never forget about my favorite lollipop ever
Until another lifetime when Iím old enough to
Take my time with it
And understand its meaning
See I canít be selfish
Because that lollipop would have been mine if I would have been
If it would have been mine then
I could have been mine now
But the candy store is closed and I have fell out with the owner
So until the candy store is open again
In a year
A another week
I have to be
And handle myself with care
My selfishness is my downfall
But my love keeps me floating
But my failure to learn how to swim
Keeps me from going toward the direction I want to go.
Towards my Californiacation
Towards the girl who stole my heart but didnít want it
Towards the girl I want to be my future
To my black hole
To my lollipop
The only girl I care for
And would not break her heart
And would love and never let her go