Sitting here once again....alone
Wishing I had someone...anyone here with me.
Well not anyone..
I wish it was you...
But I know you have your own life to live and don't even give me a 2nd thought..
Or a 1st
I know I need to find my own way, my own life..
But if it's not with you...it's not a life I want to live..
You have no idea how you've turned my world upside down or do you care.
I play if off like it's no big deal but it is.
Everything I see
Everything I hear
Everything I touch
Everything I smell
Everything reminds me of you
You'll probably take this as sum game Iím trying to run on u because you've heard it all before..
Just some bullshit Iím saying to make you love me
Maybe it is...
But can you blame me??
All I want is your attention
Just you...all of you
*sigh* but as usual you donít give a fuck.
You can't see that the person in front of you will always take you as you are . . . instead of trying to changing you into some fantasy that i think you should be.
Instead you push me to the side to follow you throbbing clit instead of your throbbing heart.
You say you love me...but do you?
Or am I just as a pause button until someone better comes along.
I'm tired believing in a future that will never happen.
I'm tired of believing in promises that are never kept
Iím tired of searching for a love that i will never receive
Is that what a woman gets for falling in love with you?
Is this the prize that Iíve won?
If it is...then I must have come in last place.