by FemmesationalNight after night I prayed for you intensely, explicitly
From the color of your hair, and your eyes,
The rich cocoa shade of you skin,
Your size,
To the sensuous curves of your body, your mind
Your flava
The swagger in your stride
The allure of your dialect
…and it was granted every thing that I have come to expect
blessings to be made of.
Selfishly accepting you
Like a reward not yet earned
…and even more than that KNOWING that I was just NOT ready
But is it wrong for me to want you to stay?
Not often do blessings come with instruction manuals
Although I didn’t deserve you
Had no idea how to serve you
You arrived so graciously at my door with a guide entitled…
“HOW TO KEEP ME HAPPY”
Never once expecting me to read this from cover to cover
A lifetime of pain
Desire
Your every Requirement
Recited to me with the lure of a love poem
Prayers answered, instructions included
…and I’m STILL NOT READY
But is it wrong for me to want you to stay?
Fuss’n and fight’n
Cursin’ and cryin’
You so lovingly remind me..
“Girl, you just use to being treated bad!”
it really is sad
Me, slowly destroying everything that I prayed so hard for,
everything that I have been blessed with
…and I’m STILL NOT READY
But is it wrong for me to want you to stay?
It is true what is given is just as easily taken away
Day after day I grow and improve for me and you
But, in the meantime, is it wrong for me to want you to stay
all though I’m still not ready?
